A letter from June 9th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, Thats right. its you from the past again. I guess you have noticed the date. It is your birthday so if anyone else haven't wished you yet - Happy Birthday Buddy! You turn 26 today. Now as you prepare to celebrate today doing whatever, wherever ... I am writing to remind you what you were up to in this day, a year ago. I probably sure you remember most of it but in case you dont, here we go. You are sitting by the computer in the River Side Apartment you recently moved in. This place still feels new but you are getting use to it. Most times than not, you do miss living in Bangalore. I dont know where you are now but back then you were hoping for a lot of things at this point. You wanted to buy a camera, get a PC Build, start a podcast, a YouTube channel, an affiliate marketing business, have atleast 10K followers in Instagram by the time you are reading this. More than ever, you hoped you will be self sufficient and help dad out until the VRS comes. Did this is come to be? Are you finally free of the burden? I hope you are planning to leave or have already left chandannagar for Vizag or Bangalore or some other place. I hope you started the youtube thing and its actually going well. I also hope you found someone for yourself. I know that we have been feeling a tad despressed about that. I have started to feel like we have love is not meant for us anymore. you may recall that we tried to reconnect unsuccessfully with Mou yesterday from my prespective. She didnt reply and I hoped I will try again next year. Did you do it? Are you thinking about it? because no matter how much you try to forget her, she will always come back. As I write this letter, I realize to myself that she was probably the only girl we ever loved. But back then we lacked the courage and the matureity to do something about it. I know we have spend many nights thinking of the possibility of time travel. if we could go back to that particular. The one that changed everything for us. we would do things so differently. Even if I cannot come back from the past time and I had to live through college and everything that came after that, It will be worth it. I would have fixed this mess and probably so many other. I worry about you sometimes. I really hope you are much happier and stress free than I am right now. I know we never did have the best of lives but I do hope you are okay. Because that thought of a blissful future me is whats keeping me going right now. Just know this, Whatever happens, never leave your brothers side. He needs you but maybe you need him more. Also remember, you are a good man.... a good son, a good brother, a good friend and I am sure you will be a good boyfriend someday to someone. I believe in you. I can say that because I know you..... I am You.... and we are gonna be okay. Regards from 2018, AAKASH