A letter from January 28th, 2015

Dear FutureMe, I know it's cliche to say but I hope you're doing well. I'm just sitting here thinking about all the things that I might say that you will laugh at in the future. Good job, hot girlfriend? Are you still really into Koreans and Nana (Im jin ah--god she's fucking beautiful if you're over her I will slap the shit out of you). Actually, scratch the job part, I hate the notion of being tied down like that. Honestly all I really want in life is a girl I love and a dog by my side. Are your tastes still retarded high? How's the girl search coming? I'm kind of embarrassed at how into girls I am right now, but it really hurts not having someone to love. I hope by now you've had the experience of a girl falling asleep on your shoulder, or just cuddling. You remember Angela? If not, check up on her. See how's she's doing, say hi. Depending on what happens from here, tell her about how you felt in high school. How are Liam and Michael? Liam's going through a no-bro want a gf/don't want a gf rut in Cornell right now. You haven't seen him in real life yet but you feel closer to him than anyone else right now (maybe because you haven't seen him in real life). Michael's currently taking a semester off of college at VT to work at Lawnstarter in Austin, Texas. Really hope it goes well for him, but I haven't been feeling that close to him lately. Still super bros, but our conversations don't last long. Is your sleep schedule still fucked up? Right now it's 5:25AM, even though I have school tomorrow and need to get up at 7. Funnily enough, I've been doing this almost every day for the past couple of weeks--have you fixed this habit? I don't know if it's good or bad, honestly. I'm fine dealing with it. You still remember Pawn Tactics and nostalgia-ing over it? I just logged on today after a long ass time, and there were only 4 people on. I wonder where all my old friends have gone: LiquidNitrogen, T15M21, Klonoa, UreOnMyHitList, EaEaEa, Sephiroth, Jangalang, PrettyTonyDON, BinLaden. God, it's been a long time. From 5th or 6th grade to now, how long has it been. Check up on it at sandboxd.com See if Blank and JPillz are still working on it, or if anyone still plays it. Fuck it hurts writing this, but I can imagine how nice it must be to get this in a couple years from now. How's your view on life changed? Still scared to fuck about death, confused about the purpose of life? Afraid of getting old? Afraid of never meeting someone you love (this is the most important to me, to be honest)? You ever just lie awake, doing nothing, listening to music, staring at the night sky (actually, the ceiling)? How's acne treating you? I hope to fucking god it's completely gone, you'd be a handsome fuck without it. Hopefully. Do you think you're attractive right now? I honestly see me (us) at a potential of 9/10. We've got some redeeming features, but right now I'm probably a 6/7. Work on the hair! Don't let it get out of control. Are you swole yet? I swear to god I'm gonna try as hard as I can to make you swole as fuck in college, mainly for the girls. I can't stand being skinny, or wearing tshirts and hope no one is judging me. Being tall and skinny is the worst, I literally feel like a stick. Still ricing your desktop and phone? Man I spent so long on that shit, searching through the shithole deviantArt is for custom icons and themes. Any good W8 themes still? Are people even using Windows 8, or even Windows anymore? Remember #rice, damn, I bet you don't. Check out if that brazillian fuck kori is still running it. How's relationships with the fam coming? I've always been super close with Jing--she's getting married to Ben in a few months. Mom and dad have been rocky, especially so with Mom. I've taken to just saying yes to everything so she can't tell when I'm lying or telling the truth. Man, remember the freakout you had about college? Hopefully you're in a better place now, I fucking hate school. I really hope to change in college, I cheated my way through highschool and computer science and I fucking regret it so much, even though no one knows. I'm so done with this boring ass life, I just want to move on to college (PSU coming days message--I wonder how long it took). I pray to god college isn't a letdown, because honestly that's all I'm looking forward to right now. How did your senior research project go? Did Gabor beat your ass for lying, or did you ever manage to finish it, or more likely bullshit your way through it? ;) How close are you with my current clique right now? In case you don't remember them Erik Song John Pentakalos Henry Ellis Nitesh (Nacho) Manem God I hope they're doing well. And all your other high school friends as well, god the future is fucking scary isn't it. Go see how they're doing for me. I'm just gonna list some other friends I can think of Michael Liu Liam Bui Austin Ly Oliver Shi George Ho Javed Shake James Jung (i swear to god he's gonna be a model or some shit) Ellen Kan Anders Choi Check up on Eetu Neuvonen (Titiuu from TF2) is. How about League of Legends? You still play that game, or does anyone? I wonder what technology when you read this. I feel fucking stupid for spending $300-400 on that game, I could have spent it on so much other shit. If you no longer play, I hope you sold it for at least some of that back. Highest rank was Diamond 4, and damn you were pretty good (at least I think I am). I'm running out of things to talk about. I hope this letters find you when you're happy and doesn't depress the fuck out of you. Good fucking luck man, Your younger self. Jack Fang. Hopefully you remember your name.