A letter from December 23rd, 2013

Dear FutureMe, You might not remember this now, but a year ago the past me wrote you a letter. now it's 10:42, and I am watching Animal Crossing : New Leaf chuggaaconroy playthrough, episode 15. Croque! I know I should've been more serious, I might have not be seeing the sunrise in future, I might not have my family anymore, I might not have my eyes anymore, I might not even be breathing. I now want to talk. About many many things. You've been so distant. I mean, I have. You need to spend more time with your family. Have you, Future Me? Mom even says she felt like she doesn't have a daughter. Auntie says she felt like the only one on family. Had anyone died recently? Have you found your special somebirdy? What about Andine? What about your drawing? Still hating Suzu and Tama? Heh. I really hope you turned out to be a great artist in the future. Make me proud, yeah? Make our family proud. Our little sister might be annoying, but don't forget--she is our sister, and she had always been there for us. Don't worry if you still can't understand Japanese, yeah? You'll manage somehow. Be sure to reach the top of the tree, be the best out of the best. ... Dad said we're schizophrenic. I think we are. I think we're mentally insane. Anyway. Have you wrote a novel already? Have you finished that fanfiction already? Have you finished Aretes already? Have you finished Bracket already? Have you finished Cerise already? Come on now, don't keep our fan waiting! Like we had any to begin with... Have you found someone to be with? Have you made a game already? Have you stopped crying to sad Vocaloid songs? Have you tried to hurt yourself? Have you become a great writer already? Have you become a great photographer already? Have you become a great artist already? Have you cried Have you cried Have you cried Have you cried Have you cried Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you Have you said sorry? I'm sorry. To everyone. To my parents for being a bad daughter. I don't deserve you. To my friends for being such a selfish bitch. I don't deserve you. To my relatives for being such a sociopath psycho. I don't deserve you. To Andine for being such a bad friend, for never listening to you. I don't deserve you. To Ms. Nina for not having the guts to visit you for 7 years. To Ms. Darni for... You know what, I don't give two shits about you, just go away. And last. To me. For being such a human trash. Are you still there? I'm so sorry. So sorry. Please change. Please. And Happy birthday.