A Letter From You.....(dont delete)

Dear FutureMe, Let's see what should we start with, by the time you read this you will still be BUTTTTTTTTTT UGLYYYYYY. First off lets start with Marco, i know you want to forget about him, and from both of us i hope you forgot about him. IF by lucky chance you have fprgptten about him he was this crush you had. This guy for when he GETS older will might be unattractive. I hope then again WE/I shouldn't wish this upon him because we are butt ugly. He has a GF but i have a feeling that they broke up. But i hope they didn't, and if they did maybe they just weren't meant to be. Lets see, GET OVER YOUSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He will never in a million years go out with you, so stop thinking he will when he wont. He doesn't like you in fact he probably thinks your a weirdo, wait no not probably he knows you this creepy weirdo whom wherever he goes somehow you (me,US) is there. HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU NOR EVER WILL. AND please tell me you stopped looking at him. Lets see i hope that you finally grown up and started really seriously taken in account that you can not afford to go to college or to a university that you like if you do not get scholarships. SO come apply. And i hope that you went to that college slash scholarship fair. You need the free none. Or unless you have somehow won the lottery then i will understand but still wouldn't you like the feeling of winning the lottery fuck i mean a scholarship. And talking about schools. I Hope you have either maintained a GPA of 3.6 or have a higher GPA. REMEMBER you want to get that award you know the Presidents award. Come one i know you can do it. You did it once so that must mean you can do it again. I hope you have tried to be more outgoing, and by now have put on the shorts with the leggings. Weight i hope that we have lost 10 or 5 pounds and are now at a weight of either 105 or 100. COME ON EXERCISE YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING PIECE OF SHIT! YOU LOOK LIKE COW (kidding) LETS SEE GET OVER YOURSELF ONCE AGAIN. STOP ACTING LIKE YOUR BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE. your not And i hope that you have at least made friends. New friends come one Sydney is just an acquaintance you and she both know it. And if she does think that we are friends it sweet of her but come on am i really her friend. what does a friend do. Im not a friend. i wuld like to be her friend, but i don't know how to. Again you are BUTT UGLY HIDEOUS AND HAVE HORRIBLE SPELLING!!!!!!!!!! I hope that you are not lieing to you therapist. and have found out or are in the road of figuring out why you have become so pessimistic about life and everything. Why you want to die... which we all know you should. And what makes it worse is that you shouldn't even be here. Bad enough is that you have recently found out is that YES you were wanted most importantly your dad wanted you. I hate that, i IIIIIII HAVE NEVER AND WAS NEVER ASKED TO BE HERE. They just dont understand that. YEs i get it you gave birth to me. does it look like i give a shit, does it look i like care when i yell at you, hit you , or almost killed you because i hate you but secretly love you. (MOM) I wish i was never here because then you would live happier you wouldn't have so much stress and deal with my crap. I'm the child that you never wanted to have im the child that does nothing. Yes that sounds good doesn't it, i do nothing bad except watch porn like 5 or 2 times a week ( you need to stop watching that shit and i hope that you have quit) one more reason for my mom to not trust me i was suppose no we were suppose to quit 4 FOUR years ago. What happened man. Why didn't you. If not for her but for us, it fucks up your brain... and now everything is sexual you cant look at girl without noticing her butt vagina or boobs. Come you are disgusting and the thing we don't know if im bi lesbian or straight. And i hope that im straight because when we look at girls you know you don't like them you know you don't ever want to date them. But its the porn man it just that. ( i hope) And with that i we don't do anything else... we read watch tv scratch our ass pick our nose (please quit with that YUCK) and go on the computer to go and read what other people are saying in a MULTIPLAYER GAME come one stop being pathetic grow up and either talk to them or dont if you mess up you can make another account you get DO OVERS not in real life. SO its okay if you dont make friends but not really because there you can what happened when you first when on there you talked yes it was mostly cussing but you still talked and you know what you ened up making friends. Please tell me you have found happiness and got your premit your 16 get off the couch and help your mom. Stop sitting thre on the couch doing nothing and help her... or else she might send you off to your dad. I wish i could stop thinking about being this useless person, but i cant . We cant everyttime i go to school. I see all those happy people talking and having someone to talk to talk to. To tell him or her your problems, But you have nothing. So go and get some friends. Come on what is the worst thing that can happened get bully no, it seems or they snicker when you walk. Or dont . It doesnt matter becuase you have never existed no one would care. If someone would do one of those flashbacks where they show what would happened if they diddnt exist and show this big ass change. With you nothing, everything in tact and come one you know thunder would still be alvie and by far way mor hapier and when he died he would have the best funeral and be creamted and sent where he was meant to. plain and simple way btter life that being beaten almots everyday and feeling neglected. You have no purpose no one will miss you, but you know what your here and uless you kill yourself which we know you want since we belive in heaven and hell and even if we didnt we still wouldn't because you just are too damn chicken to kill yourself. SO you have to PROVE NOT ONLY YOU BUT THE REST WRONG you have to be. Yes i can yes ic an i will be a surgeon and i damn good on and i will get into this university i will get into track and i will like it and i will get a scholarship. Because i know you can but you have to try cuz if you don't then you might as well be dead. God might accept you... we know your scared you will die but when you time cuz it will be scary but you might go to hell just don't do anything else bad. Lets see what else (my fingers are getting tired) have more confidence in yourself. Come on do something please that all i ask.. be more outgoing. And i almost forgot STOP FOR BAJEEZUS FUCKING SAKE WEARING THAT SWEATER OR ANY SWEATER IN THE SUMMER OR WHEN IT PLAIN AND SIMPLE HOT OUT.you live in a city where it fucking hot like im talking 120 freaking f degrees hot. And stop thinking that everyguy wants to date you, no guy wants to date you no guy... you are ugly you have droopy saggy bags (eyes) and a kinda saggy butt, and small boobs.. and hair that yiu eat which is now growing thank god. oh and please tell me you have stopped pulling out your hair.. please tell me you have i hope you have. Lets see square face come one not attractive on a girl. And if eveything if you were a boy you wuld not be hot... we saw the boy version of us... fuck UGLY AS FUCKKKKKKKKKKK... All you are missing the the Y chormosone didnt activate so you were stuck being a girl. NOW be a girl and grow a pair or ovaries or female version of balls. You are only 5'1 and short ugly and plainn ugly bleh..... Now thats it.. You will get another one / i we will write another one once you get this one and send 10 years in the futer.. Good luck and i hope we have figured some things out i hope that by somehow we have learned to accept ourselves and know that yes we our attracive. Other people might not think so but we are (in some way).. So CHeer up and dance like crazy and luagh like your going to die and today is your last day.. Have fun! ^_^ So bye for now :P :D Hope you have good day after reading this. So bye... Polo