IDANNO, it's life, really.

Dear FutureMe, (SARUH) I like how a lot of these are coming from Business class. I don't remember when I'll get any others for now... Well I just had a test, that I know I failed. Ugh. So much for the 92 % . Although let me know if you got that after reading this. Maybe you'll be reading it on your new laptop if you got it LOL ^^ Sooo let's see. Waaass goin on. You're happy now. Will you be when you're reading this again? I hope so. I like asking myself that. You're also listening to Alexisonfire. It's your kind of 'band of the week' sort of thing before you move on to something else. And don't forget Mariah Carey's "All I Want For Christmas Is You" . Ha. Not even December yet, but you love that song. How To Say Goodbye In Robot made you cry. You're going to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows tonight for the second time. You can't wait. You're going to see it with Joseph. You're still going to love him when you read this again, I know it. How'd your 'Sweet" 16 "party" go ? Fantastic I'm sure...... I hope the weather's warm right now. It's snowing today, the first official time this year. It came earlier this year. Didn't have to wait till December 1st. Not a whole lot of snow though. I kind of want more snow, but not the dreadful wind. Did you beware of December 31st? If you have no idea what I'm talking about, consult your diary. If it's not even in there, then maybe it didn't happen. What'd you get for Christmas anyway? Converse? Is that all. What about from Joseph? What'd you decide that you wanted. I know you're having kind of a hard time doing it now. It's just going to get worse when you're older. I get why my parents never got a whole lot on Christmas. You just stop wanting when you get older. Or maybe you want more. I guess it depends. But I want Converse and maybe a gift card or two. The end. Also a Metric t-shirt or TWLOHA shirt would be nice too, but I shouldn't include things you can only get over the internet. After reading this give Aashna, Mackenzie and Sarah big hugs, and Jaskaran too, as soon as you can reach them. Re read whatever texts you have kept. I hope they still make you smile like they do now. This will be almost seven months. Seems pretty long I suppose. Sometimes I still wonder why me, why now, why this. It's awesome, and I love it, but why? Of course I'm not complaining, just wondering why it happened to me. I'm only fleeping 15. I just hope he means it. I'd like to point out that I love him so, so much, and I can't even begin to describe how much exactly it is that I love him. And how much I hope he loves me too, and I hope he means it every time he says it, because I'd hate it if it weren't true. Must Have Done Something Right, eh? =) I guess so... not sure why. I'm really an awful friend, and I hope I've fixed everything that needs to be fixed about that. Speaking of friends, if you haven't found Simone's address yet, go look for it NOW. Seriously. I wish she had a facebook, but guess not. Go listen to a happy song, even if you're not happy. Or at least settle for some Metric♥. Do you still love that band? I'll bet you do. That can't change, it's been a year already. Ha, music hasn't left me, and it's been a year. My feelings haven't changed for music. That's why I love it. I hope you're still using Tumblr. :3 Now go watch Titanic and Sound of the Music the next time you can. Random, but just do it. I should be reading something about networking. Meh. I'll save it for Monday. Nobody seems to be doing much anyway, and my stomach hurts. Cramps? Ugh. Not sure. Hairdressers in Iceland are the happiest people in the world. But I guess I'm running a close second right now. At this point last year you were happy too, I remember. But actually just a week before this week last week you were probably practically suicidal. That was so stupid. Awful reasoning. The past is in the past. Do you still wonder why, and how, you came to be here. In this school. In this town. What if you lived in Scarborough, or even in Brampton? Maybe you'd know Jaskaran. Maybe you'd be going to Louise Arbor. But maybe you'd have met her under different circumstances, and you two would have disliked each other. It's unlikely you'd have ever met Mac, Sarah, Aashna, Kevin, George, Mitchell or Joseph. Or almost anyone you know now. You might not be listening to Alexisonfire, but rather something else. Maybe you wouldn't be wearing yellow skinnies. Maybe you wouldn't have your scars. Or maybe you'd have more. Maybe you wouldn't have pulled an all nighter last night watching Death Note. Maybe you wouldn't be in love. Maybe you wouldn't have found love for another few years, making high school slightly miserable, or less fun. Maybe, maybe, maybe. You have no idea how happy I am this all worked out THIS WAY. I don't want to think about how different things would have been otherwise, even if it were kind of a good different. Nothing could be better than this. Absolutely nothing. Four minutes left of class. Then Spanish. Oh, I wanna fall asleep. Volounteering with Mac tomorrow. I need facking sleep. Maybe we'll go out for sushi later, that'll make it worth it. Make waking up at 7:30 worth it. Oh well, that's half an hour later than I usually get. Oh wait.. I don't even begin to consider crawling out of bed until then x3 Give Joseph a huge hug after reading this. Well, you would anyway. I hope he's waiting outside this class. Gah. :3 ♫ I DRAW THIS LINE AND HOPE YOU'LL TAKE MY SIDE. also, Control. :3 haha. :) oh jeez. "you're insane, you're perfect and I love you more" ^ I Love That. A whole lot. It just sounds great. I wonder if you'll still have it with you ^w^ okay, time to go. this was long. hope you liked reading it... definitely fun writing it. remember, never forget. that's what diaries are for. he, kay. bye. :( xoxo, Sarah♥ p.s. I was slightly hyper while writing this. all nighter + chocolate does that to you... :3