You've made it!!

Dear FutureMe, Do you remember this day? * 2 months after ending the relationship with Brian * No money to finance a decent life and with a endless pile of depts * No home, living with your sister and nephew (she is so sweet) * No work, it's hard to find something these days - but also you was so scared if you were able to do it with your ADHD brains and social mess. * An overdose of creativity, which cannot find its roots * An enourmous potential, that cannot find it stage to shine * A lot of ideas, but afraid to commit to any of them * No children or family, I had wished for myself at this age. * A lot of dreams, but none of them ever achieved * So much mess to clean, all due to that low feeling of selfworth. Yes, it are hard times these days and it hurts. But I have promised myself yesterday I am going to put anything in work to be the best person I can be, to grant and give myself everything I wish for. To live the life that mirrors the worth, pride and soul I have inside. Yet, with all this difficulties I am facing now, I firmly believe you are doing perfectly fine now. Probably right now, tears are filling your eyes by realizing how far you've come. That you've made it. I know it was a hard and long journey and I just want to tell you how proud I am. Again: you've made it!! You are not the baby that was abused physically and emotionally, left black and blue in her crib. You are not the toddler that refused to talk untill she was four. You are not the child having to live with a heroin mother and a alcoholic father. You are not the girl from that weird, broken family. You are not the young woman getting on drugs destroying her heart and mind. You are not that adolecent, choosing man that are abusing her and sucking all the life out of her. You are not the woman that is a social failure without a job, diagnosed with adhd, living in a complete financial and societal mess. You are a strong, beautiful woman who has chosen to live for god or the universe. A woman that has, against all odds, achieved the dreams that have kept her alive. You are a excellent karateka and a fine artist. A woman that has fighted for here pride and playfulness and takes care for her twin flame and family. You've made it. I wish you many, many years of good luck, strenght, positivity, health and wealth. Now, kiss the beautiful man you are living with, kiss your babies and tell them you love them. Somehow I have the image in my head, you are having a big belly, carrying a child. Congratulations! This is your moment to be thankful to yourself, the universe, your husband, your babies, your family, your friends and all the persons who've helped you along the way. You've made it. Time to be peaceful and enjoy the breathtaking flower that has grown out of the seed you have sown today. I love you always. Maya