A letter from September 10th, 2017

Dear Sevin, but from the future, i don't know, it's almost 11 pm here, i can't sleep. just read it like i'm a clone or some ****. there's a lot of stuff happened, you had some cool friends, lost some of em, literally. i'm remembering Ridho right now, i don't know why tho, ahah. Talking about friends, you made a friend with a prisoner. yea, it's skull, i hope he's well and not doing stupid things again, if you know what i mean. Skull huh. Reminds me of your greatest friend, Netta. you're doing great with her, till you confessed to her how much you love her. Can't really blame you on this, tho. Cus you can't ******* hide it, kept crying for a week. I totally know, i totally find it legit love you did for her, but...it's just not working well. I totally hope you're having a relationship with her, a healthy one. God, pardon me, i'm so ******* sleepy, but i wanted to share this with you. I'm listening to that cool vibes playlist you made. Are you playing those often? If you don't, you should. remember all those tears over artworks, over high-pressure homeworks, over future-anxiety, over...your relationship with netta... those days, man. Rough as ****. are you laughing now? are you crying now? maybe it's too late to hope that you're still healthy despite all those wrong **** that might be going there. Cus remember when you're afraid of losing your health and won't be able to follow your passion again? those thoughts are weird. But the fear is real, though. Oh, so, you're not with Netta? still single? with one of your bestfriend? WITH MAS RAM? i hope you guys are doing well. Not with Mas Ram? an old guy you've always wanted, maybe? ;^) ah, it doesn't matter. what matters is that you love him/her. if you don't, please broke up with them, or even divorce with them before you have any child. Cus..you know...wtuff that happened to mom ad dad...makes us like this. uh...how's your work? you're opening a cafe? a library? or still working as a broke freelance and stays with mom? i hope that you stays with dad now. or even better, stay by yourself or your partner. good luck on any job you're working on right now! (i hope you're a successful illustrator, cus ****, i'll be admiring you all day long, narcissist xd) but still...i don't know what will happen in the future, so i don't know how to talk with you..but i hope everything just went smoothly like your plan. Cus you'll just another turd with no passion that i would hate right now... but don't feel bad. Cus i know, you and i are an arrogant *** who wants to be on top of everyone, SO BET THEIR ***** DOWN, BABY!! your good friend, anxiety and curious side of your old self, Sevin