Here's for hope.

Dear FutureMe, I'm not sure where you will be when you read this. But this is me. You, your past self. There are alot of things you have to face these days, your ex-husband, your children, and hell even a job. You've put up with alot of shit, been stepped all over, and stood your ground when you needed to. You took the hits that were intended for his mother. You took the insults that were intended for his mother. You stood up for her, and you got no respect from his mother for it. She spat on you that night, so did he. There is no looking back now girl. Those kids need you, and there is nothing those two can do to stop you from being the good mother that you are. So put your best foot forward, and walk with your chin high, because there is no one that will tell you what you are doing is right or wrong besides yourself. Listen well to your fiance', his heart and head is in the right place, and he busts his ass to take care of you daily. Listen to your sisters, they love you and want the best for you. Forgive your father, for he was the one in the wrong to reject and ignore you in your time of need and desperation. Never forget your mother. She will always be there for you even in death. And last but not least, love yourself. You are a good woman, with a heart of gold and a bright mind and personality. Let the world see you shine for whom and what you really are. Love yourself, PastMe.