A letter from November 19th, 2016

Dear FutureMe, You wrote this letter when you were 21. At this moment you pretty didn't achieve anything worth mentioning. You failed your unv years twice but somehow you kept going and I just hope it'll get better and you will be successful again. How are you? Like really? Are u better at writing? God i hope, you know how much we love to write and how we dream to become poetic at it one day. And did you study English? Please tell me you actually followed the one thing you're good at. In case you didn't do any of these, I hope it doesn't make you feel bad reading about them, and I hope whatever you ended up with is worth it, and if it's not then please stop.. you don't owe anyone anything except your children, they are always worth everything. If you're married, does he love you as much as you do? I'm we wouldn't marry someone we don't love no matter what, so I hope he carries the same amount of love you carry for him. CAN YOU PLAY GUITAR? *-* or the beautiful ukelele? GOD how I hope you leanred to play music, it's the only thing we can relate to the most. At this period of time you have good friends, and you realized that it's okay not to have a best friend, because maybe you're meant to have your husband or even your kids as your best friends? Why not, that would actually be better (they are worth it, never forget this) somehow I feel like repeating this sentence a lot, I hope it benefits whatever you're going through right now. You like to record books now, I hope you still do that, or at least you're doing to yourself only, you are also worth it. You're strong, don't let the memories or the decisions you took in the past tell you otherwise, be confident so that your daughter will also learn how to become a worrier, JUST LIKE YOU. I want to say more, I really want to but.. I'm scared of the future, I'm scared of you.. please stay alive and your mom and dad and sister as well.. we can't go on without their love. I love you, I really do. Keep reading books and learn whatever it is to be leant out there in the world.