A letter from September 24th, 2016

My Song And..... By Younha Last night I slept late an dreamed another realistic dream. I was able to talk with one guy who made me smile and laugh a lot. . And along came another guy who I think I met through google plus .. Cuz soon after I asked for any other accounts he might've had. I wish I could revisit this dreams since there's so many gaps.. I met with someone irl and was able to get comfortable with them.. It wasn't long before I had him add me. Well before that I think I was with him somewhere and I was pretty nervous .. I wanted our relationship to be a kinda secret I guess so when we crashed into his friend, my adorable emo boyfriend just tried to not answer the question on who I was, then I think he ended up saying it anyway. Then we walked away and he didn't speak further with them.. in the way this boy acted, I felt there was pain and something hidden, an overloaded train full of thoughts that made his outer appearance seem blank. He didn't speak much, but somehow we got close enough.. I really wanted to be around him all the time and talk often so I gave him my accounts to speak with me again. I waited anxiously for him add me.. And as soon as he did I was so excited. I felt he would tell me more since he wasn't much of a speaker. It was a weird situation but I couldn't really remember much. He lived only somewhat far, so I hoped to get together and do something as soon as we were allowed to. This dream really hit me with so much loneliness. 2.37PM