Your Previous Self

Dear Gina, This year you must be in high school. Well, I'm only an 8th grader right now. I just want to send you a letter to make sure you never forget what you were like as a 13 year old. Ashley is pissed at me. Because of the Good Charlotte concert. Her mom called me two nights ago and said she couldn't go, so I naturally invited Michael. Big mistake. Omg, the phone is ringing right now. It's Michael. I just hung up. It turns out Manny can't come but now he wants his cousin Jennifer. I want Ashley. I don't want Michael! But Ashley is being such a bitch to me that I guess she doesn't even deserve to come at all. Her mom called me 2 nights ago and said that she was in trouble because she wrote bad things about her family and that she wasn't going to the concert. Keep in mind that when we were planning this, I made it very, very clear that the only way she could come was if she was positive that she could come, but she cancelled anyway. Like always. Anyway, my mom and Gloria had a huge fight today. I know we're right. She said she couldn't come, so I invited sum 1 else. Now she started screaming at me on the phone about "selling her out" lucky im such a good debater! i yelled rite back :) anyways, i dont wanna talk about ashley this whole time. my friends: ashley(fighting) ilana maria emily kathleen (sorta...) uhh.. ex-friends jessica paige camille, nicole, katie b, liz a hmm.. I got a shoulder-length haircut on Sunday! it looks ssooo bad.. well not really. even tho i cried after i got it. my mom felt wicked bad so she took me 2 mcdonalds and i cried @ mcdonalds!! i miss my hair (which was down to my boobs) of course, since this is your 18TH BIRTHDAY (happy biiiirthday...) you probably have long, beautiful hair. It will grow, it will.. Charlie. I hate him. He said that part of me is smart and happy and the other is emotionally struggling. He said he loved my mom, even though it hasn't even been two years, and they met through an online dating service after my mom and Dizz broke up... Daddy.. I love him so much, even though I barely ever see him anymore. He is such a good dad. I really want you to visit him as much as possible!! Please!! :) I really hope that by the time I read this my mom and Theresa are no longer emotionally abusing me. Every day I come to the point at least once that I run out the front door and cry outside, and think about suicide because I hate living with them so much.. Keep thinkin times will never change Keep on thinkin things will always be the same Cause we're movin on and we can't slow down this memories are playin like a film without sound WAHHHH thats me and ashley's song... :(