A letter from August 7th, 2016

Dear FutureMe, HI DUMB *****!! Oh, sorry for calling you that.Well, that is what I think about the you in the past,specifically your 21 year old self. That girl is so ******* dumb or better yet STUPID.I always thought you are so smart,but then I was proven wrong.Right at this moment, I don't feel beautiful at all. I feel like the confidence inside me was drained by that time. I HATE MYSELF! You are a gorgeous woman who is beautiful inside and out so don't ever let anyone else say or make you feel otherwise. I know that you are always saying that you don't need any man to make you feel happy and complete but we both know that YOU WANT A MAN.You want a man to make you feel beautiful,to make you feel special, to make you feel valued, and most of all to make you feel loved. You are always acting like a confident and secure little ***** when all this time we both know that you are A BIG INSECURE WOMAN. Wake up and Stop lying to yourself. By the time that you are reading this I hope that you have moved on from the stupidity that you have done yesteryears. I hope you have realized your worth and value without anyone helping you, cos let's be honest you are the only one who could love you in the way that you are always picturing someone would. I hope that you have found that one man that you don't need but would always hate to lose.Someone who will not complete you nor satisfy you but will eternally be there for you. If you already have that one don't act so stupid again and let go of him. Please, just this one time, make the smartest decision and put a ring on it. Who says a girl can't propose? I'll beat them. But if you are already in the process of getting married. I AM SOOOO ******* HAPPY FOR YOU.Finally, a guy proved you wrong on how you always view your future will be. Now, you won't be alone in your own house with all your baby dogs. Finally, someone proved you wrong that every guy will end up leaving you just like your father left you. Finally, someone will be there for you to say those pretty word that would encourage, uplift, and empower you everyday for the rest your life or, well, just when you badly need them. SO LADY, GOSH DARN IT! HOLD ON TO THAT GUY. DON'T YOU ALWAYS FORGET THAT YOU ARE TO GIVE TOO. YOU SHOULD NEVER BE A SELFISH WIFE WHO WOULD WANT HER HUSBAND TO TAKE CARE OF HER BUT WOULD NOT WANT TO TAKE CARE OF HIM. PLEASE REMEMBER TO LOVE HIM EVERY DARN DAY OF YOUR LIFE. But what if... If you really did end up alone, don't be too harsh on your self it is not because no one liked you or you are not hot enough.It is just that you are so strong and independent that no man did think he can handle you for a lifetime. You are too much for some guy but that is never wrong. Cos, at least you are true to your self. So then, WOMAN, whatever may happened to you in the past, it is all just a memory now. Sometimes it will make you laugh just how young and stupid you were back then, but at least you enjoyed the ride. And what will happen to your future will always be a mystery, you always daydream so you always have different ideas on what could your future be. Just like how you imagined ALEX GASKARTH will divorce Lisa and ended up meeting you and marrying you. LOL! Or how I was imagining my future self reading this right now. But, never forget TODAY, always enjoy and give your best in your every day. I hope you have stopped ******* yourself on your mind now, though. CARPE DIEM - Dead poets society. Whatever happens, always choose to be happy. :* I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!