A letter from July 4th, 2016

Dear FutureMe, [04/07, 1:46 AM] Basith: ohkk [04/07, 2:33 AM] Basith: i haven't slept [04/07, 2:33 AM] Basith: in my bed for last 2 hours and thinking [04/07, 2:34 AM] Basith: and now i clearly have an idea why i was feeling low and hollow [04/07, 2:34 AM] Basith: yes you are right it's about us [04/07, 2:34 AM] Basith: couple of reasons [04/07, 2:37 AM] Basith: one. your resignation. this makes me feel that you are leaving me soon. to mumbai. feels like this is the first phase of you leaving me and the process has started [04/07, 2:39 AM] Basith: altho i want you to get through TISS, i will miss you. badly. feels like how am i gonna survive without kitty. feels like my day will be incomplete without seeing you [04/07, 2:40 AM] Basith: gonna miss your pretty face and chirpy cuteness [04/07, 2:40 AM] Basith: feels like m tearing up now [04/07, 2:41 AM] Basith: second. our conversation about my past relationships. [04/07, 2:41 AM] Basith: i dont want our relationship to be like my previous ones. i dont wana leave you [04/07, 2:42 AM] Basith: talking about it made me feel like i might lose you [04/07, 2:43 AM] Basith: miu thanks for understanding me well [04/07, 2:43 AM] Basith: i love you like mad [04/07, 2:44 AM] Basith: so sleepy [04/07, 3:18 AM] Basith: didn't sleep [04/07, 7:56 AM] Mira: Hi [04/07, 7:57 AM] Mira: You are cute bundle of **** joy. Lel. [04/07, 7:57 AM] Mira: Bunny, I hate the distance too. But this will only make us test our relationship further. [04/07, 7:58 AM] Mira: And sometimes I think we need something like that. [04/07, 7:59 AM] Mira: Do you know why I talk about myself and my past and everything out front without any hesitation? Because the emotional chaos attached to it will minimize. [04/07, 8:00 AM] Mira: And look at you now. You said you werent able to figure out the past few days why you been this way. And now you have figured it out. [04/07, 8:00 AM] Mira: Me putting **** into your head helped. [04/07, 8:00 AM] Mira: So the more you say dont pressure me to talk, it is actually helping you. [04/07, 8:01 AM] Mira: You dont access your mind and moment right then and there [04/07, 8:01 AM] Mira: And get rid of that ****** thought of someone telling you about forcing yyou into doing things. [04/07, 8:02 AM] Mira: Basith you got to understand that sometimes when you are in a committed relationship and you know you can make your other half feel better, you do it even when sometimes you hate it or you don't feel so good about yourself. [04/07, 8:02 AM] Mira: And I have those moments with you a lot. [04/07, 8:03 AM] Mira: When I'm pushing myself to do something because I feel like I'm doing right by you to make you happy. [04/07, 8:03 AM] Mira: Compromising partnership. If you can't meet me in the middle and understand your emotional level with mine then we are screwed. [04/07, 8:05 AM] Mira: If you love someone, I know that any clown costume won't embarrass that person because it would make their other half happy. And I know this for a fact. [04/07, 8:16 AM] Basith: yea i understand kitty [04/07, 8:16 AM] Mira: You have to meet me in the middle [04/07, 8:17 AM] Mira: When you are feeling ****** you have to tell me [04/07, 8:17 AM] Basith: did a sort of introspection because you told me to [04/07, 8:17 AM] Basith: and i am glad i did [04/07, 8:17 AM] Mira: And you said nothing helps. Bunny I understand tthis more than anyone [04/07, 8:19 AM] Mira: Text you once I reach office. [04/07, 8:19 AM] Basith: I know i should tell your stuff expecially when I feel low. but i am not used to it and I guess i need to [04/07, 8:20 AM] Basith: sigh [04/07, 8:22 AM] Basith: whenever i felt low earlier, which happened rarely, i kno a lil more time and i am good [04/07, 8:22 AM] Basith: this time i couldn't [04/07, 8:23 AM] Basith: for me telling stuff like this is actually pushing myself. but I would do this for you [04/07, 8:24 AM] Basith: i really really appreciate you understanding me here [04/07, 8:25 AM] Basith: i thought imma be your healer. it's the other way round now. and I don't like 😁 [04/07, 8:26 AM] Basith: i love you for the way you are [04/07, 8:26 AM] Basith: my yummy bummy [04/07, 8:27 AM] Basith: Let's do chitty chitty bang bang soon