A letter from June 29th, 2016

Dear FutureMe, If you're taking the time to read this, then you either F'ed up your life and have nothing better to do, or you've got quite the handle on time management (if that happens I will be so proud..) and are intriguied to humor your past self. Either way, I'm glad that you're alive to read this. So let's do an exact ten year flashback, why don't we? It's approximately 11pm and you (I?) have to get up in a mere couple hours to leave for MCO en route to AUS. But of course I can't sleep, because it's before 3am. Yay screwed up sleep patterns! By this point does your father know about the trip to Alaska or was that kept under wraps for that many years? (half rhetorical question, half memory joggers) Anyway, after a couple days in Texas, I'm heading out for a 7-day Alaskan cruise with the Asian cousins. But you could probably figure all this out from the amazing pictures that you'll take and checking your Google calendar from ten years ago, so I won't bore you. Let's talk general stuff. At this in my/your/our life, you're 100% confused. Dropping out of the ideal program for you was a major step. Frightening, but I'm pretty excited to be introduced to new people (hopefully not the idiots). I hope that wasn't a mistake that comes back to bite me. But risks, right? I'm not a fan of those. Planning is good. You have no idea what's in store for you and your life, so that's pretty stressful. Career? Good question. The only thing driving you to success is the refusal to fail. I hope you came up with a plan and have a good life, cause otherwise I'll be looking back pretty distraught that I haven't improved in 10 years. What about socially? How are you daring? More than 3 friends? FYI, currently my friends are K, A, and D. If you don't know who they are... Well that's quite unfortunate. I really wanted to stay in contact with them. Snapchat streaks failed to keep close to D? 😂 The 'break-up' with A(G) still stings, but I know it's for the best. Nothing changes the friendship we had. Never. I'll bet D(A) and A(G) aren't close anymore. And A(G) has probably broken up with A(B) so long ago that you forgot all about it. Or maybe not and the world will be shocked. It's too bad the friendship with E didn't work out. Four was so good. A reunion would be a beautiful thing. Speaking of E, did he and A(V) ever get together? Hopefully E didn't get hurt from whatever resulted of that... Have you gone on a date yet or are you still frightening AF? Is anything going to happen with K or is that all empty with true emotions for D(A) (as everyone figures)? Still can't figure out that pairing... The humorous flirting is very amusing. Pick-up lines are golden like a murky lake. Can K divide better yet, or is that still a daily struggle for him? Wow what a tbt, I'm sure. Ew tbt to the worst teacher ever... Look all these people up on social media if you haven't lately. I'm very curious. Has A become the person she should? Or is she continually falling victim to the opinions that others have of her? She's strong, hopefully she stays that way. (hey if you're still in contact, why don't y'all tbt to when we made the K ditching us videos and we almost got attacked by those weed guys...) I hope that if y'all stopped talking, it was because of yourselves, and not anyone else. Y'all are better than that, remember? (check Telegram... Wow what another tbt.. Revolution...) Is D famous? I sure hope so.. There's someone who I hope pushes for his dreams. The fanpage better be strong, regardless. Always the best at photos. Remember freshmen year MB... The best year with D and A. What ever happened with S and A(M)? Now those are some people destined to be big. BTW remember when you switched to mellophone? Lol I'm so bad. I can't play above Eb on a good day. C on an average one. This is not the instrument for you, but sectionals of flutes.... Whew that's rough. How were the milestones? Did you go to prom (haha I make myself laugh..) How was graduation? Become fluent in Spanish? Other languages? How about your face, did you fix that? What about your body, did you manage to stop drowning yourself and stresses in food? Oooookay this is really long, but what's new. Long story short, right now you've got nothing by 3 (3.5?) friends (A(L) was pretty dead set on becoming one... Did he make it?), you're afraid of failure cause you're stupid, and all you want is to love someone/be loved/have a family. Yay stereotypes! Sincerely, Ten years ago you (and if you have amnesia and don't know any of this... Well that's quite unfortunate. Fix yourself) P.S. This entire message was written on my phone, laying on my stomach because Musette won't leave my back. What an adorably stupid cat... P.P.S. I'm sorry I made you suffer through that horrid grammar and structure and whatnot...