A letter from April 23rd, 2016

Dear FutureMe, Um, hey there Kate. How have you been up to? So this is you from the past. I will remain only a memory after 10 years but I will make sure that 18 will be all worth it, somehow worthwhile. I wanna tell you many things that Im afraid you may forget when you turned 28. So this, it's a serious talk for me ( i dont know if it still matters anyhow if i were at the age as you) Here I start, last night, You/I slept with Tintin, Tommy and Ela. So yes, it's a quality time with the sibs. You almost cried even when Janine receives a text from the CHED and you didn't! You certainly dont want to lose your scholarship. But after all, I/you had a quality time sleeping! And... In your dreams... I barely remember some of the details, usually I made it to two or three scenarios of dream while sleeping. But last night, I can vividly remember just one a moment where I, I were wearing a school uniform (but: i cant mention what in particular) and I was beside a guy. Childishly type. We're laughing not so loud. I leaned to his shoulder andl looked at his face, it is like I've known him a long ago. REALLY. You know that, Im not the clingy type and never i was. But I did to him, so we'reclose? Sort of. Closely like. I cannot remember the detail of his face in particular of his lips and nose, but I guess If I would met him in this real world I could identify him. His eyes are still on my mind, his hair was a cleancut, he maybe tan or lighter skin but not too dark. I can tell it, the feeling is like I know him a long time ago but never seen him. The moment I stare at him, I know I got this wonderful feels inside me. He is a best friend type. I know at that moment, there's something. The seconds I just leaned into his shoulder, I know it might be something more on me, I felt safe, I felt love, I did not want anything of other desires nor did I objectified him. I just know I was in love. Bad thing, I felt an infatuation into a guy over a dream. Still, Im having a bad time to catch up the name of a girl I saw also last night at the same scenario. Sizzy, Sez or what. Someone the guy (literally) of my dreams wants? I remember she has leukemia. I doubt it that maybe perhaps it was just brought by the books and movies Im into. But still... I don't know. The last thing I remember, me and that guy entered a shop where inside was an ice cream parlor. I picked a cone from the box and putted some cream on it. I ate ice cream with him.That is all I remember. These are just the two of our memories. It is quite horrifying that I felt comfortable with a guy bc its the first time I ever did that, and it first happened in dreams. I dont know now. Maybe, I hope that I'll see him again in my dreams. But that would happen impossibly I know. So what about, meeting that guy as a person in this real world? I got no idea. So, he left me questions in my head. That what if I had lived another life a long time ago? With that guy. What if our souls live together? What if I alsoexists in his dreams? How could I ever dreamed of a man I dont know. I sent it to the Kate after 10 years, you'll be 28 by that time. Tell me if you had met him, tell me if you still love him (bc in this very moment, I think I do). Tell me, who are you marrying? Is he a good guy? Is he the guy you feel in love every time you lean to his shoulders? Tell me would he buy you ice cream? Tell me is he the guy? Please tell me if we are destined to someone in particular. Because I'm dying to know if there is. If he is. This is no exaggeration, in case you don't believe what the 18 year old Kate has told ya. Sorry if I still got wrong grammars. Love you! Sincerely yours, Kate, of in love with the lean