A letter from January 26th, 2016

Dear FutureMe, Remember this? Surely you have been anticipating life to be better. I truly hope my situation is better by now. I do have hope that what is bothering me the most is short-lived, temporal anxiety, caused by living with the parents. You can't be mad at them forever. College will come around soon and I suspect time and separation can heal a lot. Live your life now, though. You know, let go of your inhibitions, find love. Right now, this is a barely emerging feeling, suppressed by years of guilt. You will find it eventually, if you haven't already. Stay true to your convictions; other people cannot tell you right from wrong, cool from not cool, quirky from not quirky. Today, I'm telling myself to not become discouraged because you found a road block. It was inevitable that I ran into it, I just need to find a way around it. I want to see me with a husband, maybe even a kid, (or maybe just husband for a little while longer!) I want to be pursuing my passion, what I've been told is a waste of my time. I love you, you 28 year old stud! I look up to you. Weird, I know, but you have to love yourself before you may love others with your whole heart. I'm so, so proud of you. Now I'm getting emotional, **** it. May you always be looking towards the better and brighter future.