A letter from your past....

Dear FutureMe, I am writing this to you from the desk of your first teaching job. I am sitting in S11 having finished up lesson plans for the morning and getting ready to teach your first class of the day. You and Ciarán have been together for nearly 3 years, but your starting to have doubts whether or not he really is the one - but the thought of being alone scares you even more than the thought of settling for someone your not 100% happy with. Your life is good but it is not what you envisaged it to be, you worked hard your whole life but it feels like you sacrificed living for success. Sure you have a job (an achievement in itself for today's teaching climate), you have a new car, but you have no friends, no hobbies, and what feels like nothing to live for. You have fallen into a comfortable routine but your life has no excitement. What scares me is the though of opening this 10 years from now and realizing that nothing has changed. I am afraid you will open this at that same desk, doing the same thing and you will have wasted the gift of life that was given to you. What can I do to make sure that you are proud of me ? What can I do to make sure that you look back on the last 10 years and say 'I lived a good life, and I am 100% happy with the decisions I made' I guess this is me saying I want to stop watching life go by and start living it - I dont know how I am going to this. You will know if I succeeded, or not. If I failed then this letter might give you the kick you need to turn things around - it will never be too late. Don't settle. Everything you have ever tried in your life you have achieved. This should be no different. le meas, tú fhéin