A letter from January 5th, 2016

Dear FutureMe, I've been meaning to send one of these messages for a while. A couple of weeks ago I received a message from 5 years ago. Boy I was quite different, but in many significant ways, I'm still the same. I have a suspicion that the adult that I am now is mostly the kind of person that I'll be when I am you. I figure I might talk about my immediate experience right now to capture what life is like. I have pretty bad anxiety, occaisional panic attacks. I'm working 3 desks at the moment at the guardian. Most of my life lately is work, which isn't such a bad thing considering that I'm a casual. I am currently sitting at syndication. I work as part of a 3 person team, alongside Alex Hopkins and Tim Knowles. Earlier today I was working as the admin for the Design and graphics dept. Tomorrow I'm at the guide. My muscles are really sore (specifically pectorals) because I'm doing this MH transformation workout. It's week 1 right now. I wonder if I'll go through with it. I've been trying to keep on a diet. I've found 2 things. (1) its expensive and (2) its very easy to stray. I'm trying to recover today, I'll avoid the gym until I'm fully rested and able to do my workout again. I hope that will be by tomorrow. So it's post-new years. People are back to work. Today's tuesday. Muni is back in badminton. I don't know who is there now. Ash, Mukund maybe. Vivian will be back. Boy, I wonder if we are still in contact with any of those guys. Christmas was okay. Ken was a bit funny about Leroy, he ruined the only opportunity for a yeah crew meetup. Maybe I did that all by myself with Chris... Things are a bit dark and heavy in my personal life lately. I have my demons. They aren't so nice. I guess getting my head into work is a positive thing. It makes me feel like a human being. I'm looking forward to going home, showering, playing xcom (if I have the energy) and probably not sleeping at a reasonable hour. I wish I could hear how you are doing. I sometimes think to myself that my life can't be as varied or interesting as it is now. I hope you prove me wrong - in a good way. Cautiously yours, I hate wondering about the future. I'm certain I'll find out things that I don't like about myself. PastYou p.s. - my computer is an alienware 13 and my phone is a google nexus 5. I bet they are really ****** compared to the holographic VR flying cars that you have now! p.p.s. I wonder how everyone's doing now - people from work, family, friends, do I get to know new people?