A letter from August 23rd, 2015

Dear FutureMe, I am here in Hanoi at the moment. I have been here for about a month and Im just so happy with the decision of coming. In reality Im just so satisfied with all my life decisions at the moment, even if it doesn't please some people. I have just learned to truly respect the differences and stop fighting to be right. I will put my point out there when it feels right but sometimes I wont even do that. I am starting to think when I should say and when I should not. Also, awareness is still my word of the year (as it has been for the last 4 years) and now I working on being aware of those differences. It sounds like Im looking for excuses for people "mis" behaviors but I feel like Im just trying to understand their world in order to judge their mistakes. And in reality, most of the time, they dont even know they ****** up. And worse, sometimes they even had good intentions. I hope when you receive that, this is all clear as water. Also I would love to know how is your life. Recently I had questions if I should be with Johannes. The answer now is: yes! We have our differences but we are just so good together. We can talk and we can respect each other. Truly respect. There is so much trust among us and our life has been so peaceful during those 4 years we are together. So yes, I hope I am still with him because he is today the most wonderful person I know. I also think from time to time if I should have a baby. I wonder if that will happen as it is so 50-50 at the moment. I really wonder how that will evolve through time. My most important point is: I hope your life at the future is amazing, because the past you was living such an awesome life. I live today out of choice, I am aware of my real needs and I can take a much simpler life than my coworkers. Also, I feel today that I am where I am supposed to be and also I am doing what Im supposed to be doing. I have problems, but they feel so **** small compared to the ocean of experiences, of positive emotions, of beauty in people and in life itself. Yes, I hope you are still in love with people, because today, that is what I live for. They are all so complicated, but so intriguing. So much fear, maybe even more than love. But I find love from time to time and it always blows me away. It comes from strangers, from a passerby. It is brief, but it is intense. I am also jogging often. It makes me feel so good. I hope you keep doing as it makes a big difference in my mood and also in the way I deal with myself and my body. If you stop doing it, please come back. Remember those times... they changed our life. Although sometimes hard, I enjoy the job so much and I feel like I am a silent activist in the shift of the world. I talk to the kids about being nice to each other and understanding the differences. I feel very good about that. Yes, I feel good about everything in my life now and I am sorry if that ****** up your life right now. But you know what? I would have done it all the same if I had to go back. It was worth every second of it. I am going to paste here something I wrote in a bus yesterday. Pray of the day: I hope my eyes keep shining as the ones of a child and the world never ceases to surprise me. I hope I keep the respect and the humility as those are the necessary precepts to keep on learning. Half smiles should pop up on my face from time to time while i watch the life happening around me. Keep in love, respect, connect and love (yourself and the others) Im sure you are in a much better place than I am. :) Love, Dani from the past