A letter from July 16th, 2015

Dear FutureMe, Dear wiser me, Today is the 16th of july 2015 and im hoping things are looking up for you/I now. A few days ago My soon to be ex husband (Ali) filed for divorce after a very long separation, but that's ok because I've started building a life with Cody and hopefully were still together and happily married. Mymy is 9 and Kaya is 8. Both very happy smart young girls, both girls are about to start playing in a soccer team and they are looking forward to it. money is tight at the moment and were looking at places to move and new jobs. I'm about to start back at uni so hopefully you/ I finished, as I've always had problems finishing what I started. Jojo will have her baby in a week so there is so much excitement there. Harlo is 3 and so is DanDan :) mum is working on the council and dad is still a drug addict, hopefully his still around by the time you get this.... Cody and myself are trying to have a baby, he will be a boy and his name will be loki :) hopefully this actually happened as my heart has been bleeding for a baby after the last few miscarriages. I've made many mistakes in my life and I hope we have learned from those mistakes!!! next month will mark the 2nd year nana passed and I'm sitting here wondering if she is still watching over me. pop is still around but by the time you get this he would of passed. just remember the values they have taught you, remember how much they loved you and the kids. remember that last moment you had with nana on her ***** bed. your loved. you matter and you deserve to be happy too!! right now you don't know if your coming or going. your trying to fight the demons of the past but some how they seem to find you even when your happy, just keep swinging like we always have! this is just a reminder of where you came from and hopefully your wiser and happier in the future. you were a broken child that came from a broken home full of violence and heart break and despite what the future brings we have still come a long way from that. my path is not set in stone but I just hope we have walked it the best way we know how. p.s cody aka says hi and says his the best *** you've ever had hahahaha