Is Christianity dead yet?

Dear FutureMe, You've went to christian school, read & memorized half the bible, and never cheated on Mai (she on the other hand goes fucking 5 other guys behind your back while your down in maryland). She has some nerve to say her belief is CHRISTIANI-FUCKING-TY. Christianity IS the most ridiculous of all religions. It claims one thing only to have literaturians dust up shit that claims something a lil different several years down the road. Well now, back from maryland and heartbroken when she tells you that "we're just friends." And you ask why. Why the fuck would, should you be heartbroken? Why the fuck do you still love her? Why? Maybe it is because you thought that you both had some kind of a connection. I'm clear to say this is, was true love. Love at its purest. Love at first sight. Love can only be pure when it is you, as in your mind and soul talking, not your errection. Well you should have got'n the hint when she went out with, that black fuck, david. Why? Was it because of his jaguar and his money? Maybe. Could she have really loved him the same way that I love her? Of course not. How do you know this? Well, its simple. They broke up a few months later. Why? Well your just gonna have to go and find that out some time. None of her relationships ever lasts long, why? I don't know. Fuck, I cant get her out of my head. Is this sad? Is it sad how I continue to love her even after being hurt this bad? Is it? It is. Boy, there are women out there who would kill to get a man like me. One who, even when intoxicated and seduced multiple times by women much prettier than her, will love only the one who is truely in my heart. So what is it going to be? You love her but you know she will never return it and no matter what you try to do, you just can't put her out of your mind permanently. Well, you've seen Love Actually. And holy shit, that is the same exact situation that I'm in right now. Well it's 3;48am and why am i still up? I can't get her out of my dreams either.