A letter from January 12th, 2015

Dear FutureMe, what has become of me? What has become of my family? Grandpas funeral was yesterday. In this time i have no idea how many of my family are going to be dead. Am I alive? Has the world exploaded? Whatever happens is whatever happens. I wish i could write more. I want to say so much to you Life is scary, always will be scary. I dont know if i will ever figure it out. I am 35 now and still have no idea what life is about. Am i just not smart enough to figure it out? Life is just a series of accidents untill we get it right i guess. Hope life has been good to you.