Keith. I hope you'll get this letter.

Dear Keith, Happy Birthday! Ilan taon ka na ba? 35? haha! Its been 10 years since I made this letter on January 2nd, 2015. I asked you sa FB kung anong email mo. Para dito yun. I wanna make sure you'll get this letter. Anyways, kamusta na? Engineer ka pa din ba sa Camella? Kasal na ba kayo ni ateng? ilan na anak mo? si Tita kamusta? Ang dami kong tanong.. haha! Ako? hmm.. Its been a long time since we broke up. But until now ( year 2015 ) I still don't know what will I be and who will I be without you. I guess no one will ever replace you. No matter how much I try. No matter who I've been with. It will always be you. Remember Dec 25 2014? We hang out. I was with some friends and I left them to meet up with you. And for the first time since we broke up, I've seen a glimpse of my future again. A future that only lasted for a few minutes but definitely worth it. Naalala mo dati, I asked for 2 years time for myself. I never really told you what's that 2 years is for right? Well, that's 1 year for forgiving myself and 1 year for forgiving you. Nov 10, 2014 will be the end of that 2 years. I counted every day you know? Until 1 day, I decided to stop. And I'm pretty sure you know why. I don't blame you for not waiting for me. Pagod kana siguro talaga. I am sincerely sorry for everything. Sorry for not staying with you. Nasaktan lang tlaga ako. Sobrang sakit na ako mismo sinukuan na yung sarili ko. Sorry for letting you go. Sorry for not trusting you again. Sorry for all my lies, for all the bad things I did and for all those things that hurt you. I know that at some point back then, nagalit ka rin talaga sa akin, sadyang napaka bait mo lang kaya hinayaan mo nalang. I wish I can go back to those times. Most of us have that one person we swear was the one who got away. To me, it's you. Please remember that you will always be my Keith. I believe that what we had back then is real. We were so in-love. But being in love is not enough to make a relationship work or last; it takes more than that. It takes trust and communication and empathy. It takes two people who are willing to give more than they take every day. Wherever you are right now, whoever you are with, I hope that you're happy. Happy and healthy :) The Arriane now may not believe in forever anymore, but the old me still does. And she still loves you. She will love you forever. Just like she promised. Love, Aryan