A letter from November 14th, 2014

delirious - christofer drew { confession letter..if I left } dear sunshine, thank you. every time you smile, make a joke, do anything... just being there, i forget about all the terrible things in my life.. every second i spent with you, i treasured it so deeply.. i'd write about it, to remember all the times we've spent with each other.... all to remember what it feels like to be..happy, worry free, stress less.. i know im nothing special, but you make me feel as if i am something important.. ive never made a friend like you before.. but im so scared. so scared you'll leave me to drown in my sadness & suicidal thoughts. i don't want you to love me, i just want you to stay, just be my friend, just to care.. there's so many songs I've listened to & all I could think of is you, the way you come and brighten my day in an instant. all you've done is wave, talk, ask, & walk, you might say...... but it meant so much more to me than just a daily action.. what am i to you..? i know you're busy, smart, and very involved in things.. im nothing, but i wonder why you talk to me.. why do you wait for me? why do you wave at me? im a nobody.. but you are the somebody i had wished for.. is this a lesson from god, or an experiment for experience? i don't want to get hurt though..