A letter from September 11th, 2014

Dear FutureMe, Today is an interesting week for you. You came to realize how you need to stay on your meds and though thats unfortunate, its a new phase of your life that has to stay consistent in order for you to cope with the multiple issues going on around you. You also asked God to do something different: reveal all things and people that are against you. To shine the light on the darkness and people who are in the dark working against me or lying to me. Let's see how that turns out. For instance, at the moment you are writing this, you are unsure if Donna spent her day cheating on you or not. Last night, you were very disappointed and suspicious of her; as you waited at the bus stop for her to come home. She apparently got home before you and you were waiting in the cold until she walked back to get you. She said she got there early but there was no way you could have passed her if you walked the usual way we walk between the bus and the apartment. The next morning, she left for work without waking me up (even though I was awake anyway). She claims she was at work all day but I called consistently through the day and left messages for her to call me; but I was told she was either not picking up or the calls were never returned. She comes home that afternoon like normal and tells me she's tired and her knees hurt. I'm sure. Up until last night, I never NOT trusted Donna. But I did ask to have my eyes opened and the light shined on those against me. Adding to the pressure is her daughter living here. She's not to be trusted and just after 9pm, she and Donna had some discussion. She apparently needed something from her mother and Donna seemed to finally take a stance against her. I never asked her what they spoke about and, knowing Donna, if I don't ask, she will not willing tell me. So I won't ask and I bet you will never know. Either way, its likely another of her daughter's requests to go somewhere that time of night or money or something most people on drugs or of the streets always wants. I told Donna that this whole experience reminded me of my grandfather, Fammie, Rolan and Jules from back in the day. How my grandfather married Fammie, divorced from my grandmother and the life he had as a result. Almost an exact replica of the hell I think I saw my grandfather going through. At the time, you couldn't stand for it; Rolan (Shanqequa) steps lightly around you, trying your patience on smaller things. You took away the phone so she wouldn't get calls from her idiot sources and *****-ish friends she meets next door. Your goal was to make things uncomfortable for her to get out. There's still time and much more for you to do without angering Donna; but Donna was already mad but for the wrong reasons. Probably, Like Fammie, she'll drink to forget .... can't put her daughter out in the street. The ironic thing is, the ***** WANTS to hang out in the streets so who is losing here if I put her *** out? Sounds like a win-win situation. Oh, that's right. She has a son. A little roach-looking yellow boy named Jeremiah. Perhaps, without doubt, the most victimized mentally brat I've ever seen. I'm told I talk to harsh to him. I think the kid has mental issues. Makes random noises to himself; tell him things multiple times he won't listen. Always looks dirty and will walk in and out of the apartment without telling anyone. While all these things SOUND like regular child, none of these things were permitted brainlessly of my own children at his age (6) and more importantly: he's NOT my kid. Let's make that perfectly clear. There is a tolerance level I DON"T have to have for someone elses kid. The same feeling I had about Lauricee (of Monica), the same I feel about people in my space (Shanequa) and her ghetto child, Jerry. I do NOT have to have a charity bliss love for a street urchin that gets kicked out of various houses. I say cut her loose. But Donna, of course, feels differently. So where did that leave you at this time? Well, with the child support taking so much money out of your pocket, you had no choice but to make Apple work for you a little more and go for Team Manager positions. At one time, it wasn't the slightest of interest to you, but money is so bad right now, you have no choice but to go UPWARD since other jobs...not even part-time jobs, are calling you. I hate living here in Georgia for that reason alone. The only thing keeping me here are my kids but even that is running thin as an excuse. With Apple, I can move anywhere and still do the same job. Your goal, professionally, is to get to Team manager at all cost (totally bypassing this Tier 1.5 ******** they positioned you in) or tier II. It's september and the new products dropped so overtime will be a plenty soon. By the way, you just canceled your vacation time. Yet another year of no Vacation. You never really liked the idea of 'vacation' anyway. Either you aren't working ... or you are. The original plan was to go to South Beach and somehow, you managed to successfully arrange that trip WITHOUT Donna and a job. But this year, its obviously not working. I always felt that Monica and I without Lauricee worked just fine. I would have still been married to Monica today if she would have had controlled her daughter, who is probably as butch as ever these days. I feel if Donna would not incorporate her ghetto kids into my life, we'd probably be a lot better off if not without stress. Besides, even if we had the money, I would not have left Shanequa alone in this apartment anyway. I didn't care where the ***** would have to go. I can't stand the lying ***** and there are plenty of times for the other shoe to drop between now and the time you get this letter in 2026. By then you will be 57-58 and you have had consistent notions that 2026 is when you would die. If you made it to this time, congrats. Hopefully you still look as young as you do at 45. I hope you also succeeded in your animation and film work. Likely, being a manager at Apple will contribute to that success. By this time in your life, you either weeded out the people who are doing you no good or you hooked up with another woman and the stress level continues. Hopefully Valerie is dead by now. I sincerely hope so but she has a habit of lingering on somehow. I hope all of your children are doing well and you were able to provide for them finally. Likely, between 2015 and 2026 you took some personal losses. Friends and family will have passed. Your mom, your aunt janet, others you love and care about. ***** is inevitable; I just hope your plan to leave an enduring lasting mark is still at play. I hope you NEVER gave up and kept working no matter how late the project, Corey. Keep taking your meds; that helps with the mental decisions to keep going. If you were diagnosed with anything tragic, just know this is the time to put the stamp of finality on all things and to wind it down finally. I hope, up until you were given that news, you continued to bust your ***. This is why skipping vacation this year isn't such a bad idea, no matter what Donna may say cause as of this moment you didn't tell her. Doesn't matter since there is no money right now and taking vacation just to take it is ridiculous. I hope you are sitting in your office of DesktopEpics Studios and reading this with the sun shining on your shoulders from the top floor where outside, the robotics engineering team is testing out something you told them to design and that night, you are about to go to a lavish black tie dinner in your honor where all your children, Andrew, Russell, Aaron, Sariya, Noel, Tiffany and Anaya are present. That night, you are given an achievement award. One of many you have or will receive...even posthumously. I hope that you are going to this dinner with a **** model that you plan to damage to later than night. :) I hope and envision this for you now so you can have this at the time you read this. I hope you NEVER gave up. Corey (September 11, 2014)