Dear Bon, it's me, the 18-year-old you.

Dearest Bon, Hope you're surprised to receive this from you on 15th July, 2008. I intend to pick a random date, probably a time when you're down, or in doubt, or feeling insecure. I bet this will come upon those days, since you feel down, doubtful and insecure pretty much of your time. That is not really okay. I don't know what to do about it yet, but I certainly hope that you would have gotten in control with your emotions by now. Let me tell you some happy stuff that you might have forgotten. For 2 days I have had lunch with my best friends Pig & Po. Stop thinking about how they seem to be closer or anything, you were having so much fun and talking about things so freely. It was so happy and memorable. With your closest mates, you are able to say anything you want, including really bad/disgusting jokes. You always have things to talk about, there isn't even a trace of dead air. This is so rare, isn't it!? We all wonder what will we be, how will we become in the future. You're in mine now, how do you feel? Do you still remember the hopes and dreams you had? The difficulties and worries? The ones I am facing must seem stupid to you. Life goes on and on, mistakes can be fixed. Well, they might not be completely gone. But now, you could totally laugh about it. You could be cool. You could accept them. You could talk openly about them. I'm not in good terms with someone right now, I don't know what to do, I don't know what to feel. Deep down, I think it's because of jealousy. But what am I jealous about? I have friends, friends who are willing to stay up late till 1 to celebrate your birthday. Friends who are willing to listen to my worries even though I have so many I feel sick of myself. These days made me realise that, no matter how in doubt I am, I could make things seem better if I laugh and bring it up to discuss. I should make things fun. Yes, try. I don't know how it feels to read a letter written by the 18-year-old you. I don't even know when will I receive this as I write. I love this e-mailling function. I love to have the chance to talk to you & I love that I know I will definitely receive this unless I'm dead. I still have a lot to say, I am fussy that way. Hereby, I just want to wish you all the best. Good luck. Good luck. Luck is not the most important, but to me, it's always necessary. Be brave, be smart, be happy & always smile. Lots of love, Bon