Read this if you havn't ran away by now

Dear FutureMe, okay, so a year has gone now, and remember this time last year how you were feeling? you wished that somebody loved you, you wished that you were not constatly lonely. a year ago, you dreamt that you ran away, and was concidering it the morning after. you thought that if you ran away, all your troubles will go away, and noone woud care if you did run away. you just wanted to feel loved. you would be fine, read something and go back into your state of depression. you never told anyone about it because you felt bad if they knew, they didnt have to know, they had other things on their minds, didnt have to listen to my problems. thats what your problem is, you care too much, you stop whatever your doing to make sure the person your talking to is fine. all you need is someone to be there for you, to make sure you are fine aswell. you had that constant sinking feeling, like a part of you was missing, love. thats what is missing, you have never truely experienced it with a boy, this time last year, you would lok around and everything would remind you of how alone and lonely you are, you jsut wantd someone to give you their hoodie, or put his arm around you and tell you loves you, or if he plays guitar to play you a song, dedicate it specially to you. even the coke cans say ''christmas tastes better together'' flippin heck. you go to arden 6th form, how is it going, you didnt feel like youve truely fited in well, like you will always be on the outside looking in. i hope you have made some proper best friends by now. you were such a flirt this time last year, but i suppose thats because you liked feeling that someone wanted you. remember that 63 inch 3D tv you have? has it still lasted downstairs? have many more 3d films came out? How is mum doing? this time last year she had her operation, you stayed with her almost everyday in the hospital, after college, you didnt want to think about all those important mocks that you had the exact same week...and that you failed, remember, C-maths, D-biology, E-chemistry, U-psychology, speaking of that, you had exams in jan....and in may, how did they go. you need to start revising fully. the snow, i wonder hot it is now, this time lst year it was fully snowing, there was snow everywhere for days, you loved the snow, made it feel christmassey, even though you hadn't bought anyone anything. this time last year, you were talking alot to josh archer, but you knew he wasnt right for you, he was just a friend, friends with benifits at most-if i ever did give him a bj, i'll never know. you would talk to him for hours, he would listen to what you had to say, tell you that you dont need to loose weight- yep, you were a very selfconsious person. you didnt like eating much because you felt that you looked slimmer when you didnt eat, you were scared to get fat, scared to ever fit into a size 10, i like 6-8 better. its 2 am right now, and the reason you are doing this is becaue jack cookson gave you this link-remind yourself to thank him. dont ever forget any of your best friends, charly, chloe, rosie, giggz, colleen, lauren. remember telling giggz you will become a strip dancer at uni if you had to earn money, haha. what. a. slag. grow up jasi and take a look around. noone likes you. you are alone in the world. you havnt ever changed anyones life or done anythng good. if you havnt ran away in a year, think clearly. when you read this, go to your baby brother and sing him mocking bird, remember? ''hush little baby dont say a word, jasi's going to buy you a mocking bird, and if that mocking bird dont sing, jasi's going to buy you a diamond ring, and if that diamond ring turns brass.....etc'' much love! jasi from the past! p.s i hope you have tiedied your room proerly