A letter from Dec 04, 2025

Dear FutureMe, i hope things have gotten better for us. right now things arent too great. amado is having trouble again idk if in the same way as last time but its possible. none of my friends really like me and i understand why. im a terrible friend im so mean and im not trustworthy. im not even a good person anymore i dont know what happened but i feel so lost and so alone right now. i had two friend groups that were combined and today i realized that i sit in the middle of them and most of the time im not involved in either conversations. idk if this is all my fault but it definetly feels like it. i wish i could just erase everything and start my whole life again. something is so wrong with me but i dont know what it is i just know that im tired of it. i really wish i had someone to talk to but my sister 700 miles away and thinks its better for her to not know whats going on at home and i dont blame her bc i also wish i didnt know. i wish i never had to talk again. every time i talk something stupid or hateful comes out of my mouth. im so tired physically and mentally. idk why im this way. anyways if u were having a good day im sorry to have made u remember this terrible time but at least u get to see how much uve grown if ur better now. if u r im proud of u and if u arent im still proud of u for still being alive. -get well soon, kamila (December Thursday 4, 2025)