A letter from May 01, 2026

Dear FutureMe, Have you left him yet? Will we ever strong enough to leave and not feel like we’re broken inside? Idk what this says about me but I never thought I’d be in an abusive relationship. Even at this big-big age. I was fool to think he wouldn’t repeat the same behavior he did with his bm. You knew you were special. Two days ago, you called his bm and told her yall never stopped being involved and he came to confront you and pushed you to the front closet door and then punch the door. He broke the door. He punched right next to you face. He punched again and you flinched. He moved and you flinched. I thought he was going to punch my face. I’m scared of him. When did it get to this point? At what point did everything shift? I just wanted to be chosen. To be loved out loud. For awhile, I was. Where did it change? What did I do? Could I have done something different to avoid this? What if I never called her? Would it still have happened? Just down the road? I keep replaying the incident. Sure the door was replaced and painted but I’m still scared. So, did you leave yet? I hope you did. I hope it didn’t happen again.