A letter from Apr 26, 2026

Dear FutureMe, i hope youre not alive anymore so you wouldnt have to suffer or getting better. i hope youre happy because im clearly not. please just do it for yourself. stop this cycle. im suffering now but you dont have to be, just end it. i want to end this. i want to end everything. im a hypocrite. im only writing this to you so i have something to look forward to and i wouldnt have to **** myself now. i love my mom, my dad, my sister, my dogs, my cousins, and my aunts and uncles. please take care of yourself so you can give back to them, to their kindness, to everything they did for you. just do that, i know you can. thats something you should hold unto when youre feeling like this. if it doesnt get better, then end it, but please tell them why. tell everyone you love that you need help, you really need it. hold unto something, please dont take your life because i didnt right now. idk why im still feeling like this. i thought it was over, i thought everything was over. you have friends now and everythings going well but why do i still feel like this. please assure me that it does get better. please just live because i dont wanna do this anymore. im so sick and tired of living. everything feels like a chore, even breathing. please tell me youre doing well. please god make me well.