A letter from Apr 16, 2026

Dear FutureMe, hi, a LOT has happened, nitu mausi passed away, we have no contact with her son, nani and other sisters including your mum wasn't given enough time to grieve, and nothing has been the same since. your mum, she's been depressed, at least that's what looks like, she probably thinks about her everyday, and you can't do anything about it because she refuses to speak about about but the light has left her eyes ever since. you got your heart broken, in the worst way it could've happened for you, things at home are **** because you know. and what feels like, you're mentally bidding farewell to everyone, like you don't want to be here anymore. nani spent her whole life worrying, working, and she's so old now it hurts, I can't bear the thought of losing more people into the abyss. Your father and his side of the family are just a lost cause at this point, you see, you understand and you don't want to engage, so you choose not to engage. but you still need money, you still have to fend for yourself, and **** that's wanting you to **** yourself, it hurts your pride, it hurts you. You are witnessing the loudest becoming and unbecoming of your sister and she destroys everything and you wish time will make it up for that, but you can't say anything because it rips the band aid off too hard, you were a child too once, in this very house. at this point, there is only one thing you pray to god for, and if that happens, atleast you'd be able to live, you're so scared you can't even write it here, oh how we both wish it happens, because we are the most desperate we've ever been in our lives that it makes us numb. please, let it happen, please let me do it, please help it happen, please i want to be in delhi celebrating my 22nd, please