A letter from Jun 12, 2025

Dear FutureMe, It's been 3 days since I've turned 24. Birthday blues got to me. I still hate this job, I hate DnB ****, I hate going back to that company, tried resigning but na counterofferan. Kailan kaya ako makakawala dito, may will to work in that company is depleting and its affecting my self and I hate it. I just really want to escape haysst. Old habits die hard talaga. Like every year kailangan may breakdown talaga. I'm on a slump right now and it's hard to get up. But as they say, once you hit rock bottom, there's no other way but to go up. So up na sa heaven char. This passive s*ic*de **** hahahaha. The sahod in this is really not worth it for me. I want new job, preferably not in construction anymore. The environment in our department is good. But the work, the higher ups, oo ikaw, naging masama kang boss hahahaha. I just wanna let out all my negative emotions, to start anew, to move on, to get up and pick myself again. So I try to share positive thoughts and memories naman, my birthday is fine, I enjoy every second of it, I actually enjoy the day before, because the day after is where I need to come back. A week of not working is good but stressful as well. Always running and running, doing the same thing over and over again. Not taking responsibility and ****. I didn't ask for this, and I still don't. I'm still thankful being in this job but the thanks is overdue, and I definitely paid it full. Goodluck to that company, may it prosper without me. I definitely saving them from myself. They will be better without me. I'm such an unpredictable b*tch. You'll never know when I will just break. But it's always near my birthday hahahah. This Birthday blues talaga. Like 24 ka na talaga. Baket. Baket ka tumagal ng 24. Anong next mag 25 ka na. I still would not have jowa, I think. Hanggang mag 30 siguro ako, kahit ano pang sabihin ng iba. I love myself too much, I love my peace, I love my solitude, and being with someone does obstruct in that sometimes. I still can't let go of my single life. Puro negative na naman. hahahahah but just let it all out, until there is nothing left. Like your will to go to work. hahahhaha. Baka mag pasa na naman ako ng resignation hahaha. Bye byeee. See you soon, kung nakalaya ka na dyan.