A letter from Apr 06, 2026

Dear FutureMe, hi im abt to read long way down and sleep cus me and samuela are going ti the city tomorrow to eat at zonts and pepper lunch and i just felt like i had to write this letter lately ive been feeling like i dont want to exist anymore. i sleep and wake up tired. i work almost everyday and i dont even know for what. im waiting to study in uni but deep down i know i wont because its too expensive and at the same time i dont really know what to do with my life my friends are all in uni and i just feel so left behind but i know i should and i dont sometimes. but its just i dont really know what to do with my life. i want to sing, write a book, post more covers but i dont really know which one is for me also i dont even know if were staying in australia. my dad hasnt said anything and he doesnt wanna talk about it. but ig by the time u read this letter, youll know where youll end up also i feel bad for my mom but ig she did this to herself. and at the same time i resent her for leaving and for saying all those harsh things to us while growing up, for giving us the fear of abandonment idk life has just not been it and i dont look forward to it anymore ik i said before that ill die before college and maybe i will cus im not even in college yet i know its selfish but i really cant think of anything else when everyone else is selfish too yeah im turning 20 soon and its just sad life just makes me throw up and want to die