A letter from Mar 23, 2026

Dear FutureMe, According to some video on youtube I was supposed to get some sort of surprise, like money, idk like something ive been manifesting for a while. Well today is the 23rd of march and nothing. Its about to be 9:30pm, so the day is almost over. I need to stop getting my hopes up like this, hm well i can’t tell if i got my hopes up, i dont think i did. I was sorta hoping maybe id have a guy take romantic interest in me. Didn’t happen but a girl can wish. I didn’t get much suprise money really, I actually lost quite a bit, but I did buy this new fancy pan by phantom chef from savers. It reeks of onions in this house, but oh well. It seems like im always complaining about the scent of onions. I remember i got this letter from my past self from 2024 where I was like so frustrated that the house reeked of onions. I probably wanted to wear bianco latte. Im wondering if i should end this letter, I should probably journal on pinterest. Lucky you, getting this letter. April will be a great month for me, LOTS and LOTS of letters. I forgot about everything I wrote in october, so itll be quite fun to read some. All of my memories feel distant. Ive been more forgetful lately, i guess it works out for me maybe. Im less in my head for a lack of better words. When you get this it’ll be September. I really hate the fall. Its probably the worst season. Like you know whats ahead. Colder temperatures, snow, god its awful. At least with winter you know there’s a spring. I adore spring. Its so lovely, like its still slightly chilly, but its comfortable and beautiful. Plus the days get increasingly warmer. I sorta like Buffalo now, its much nicer in the summer compared to the inferno like temperatures in va. I did visit cici at the hospital. Well sorta. I went with mama and i wasn’t allowed to go in to speak with cici bc im 17. 17 is basically 18 at that point. God forbid I want to speak with my sister. I saw a bunch of people in their teens in the hospital with her. I mean its not surprising idk what my point really is. Im terribly nosy, I’d love to know what landed them in the mental hospital. Today I spilled some of my oatmeal on my carpet. God i was so annoyed. It was a quarter till 6 and I had to clean my carpet. I really shouldn’t eat in my room again. I bought a carpet cleaner off amazon, it was like nearly 40% off and 65 bucks w the sale. I think i bought some carpet cleaner spray w it too so like i spent a good 90 bucks. I’m terribly broke rn, but i did literally end up canceling the order not even 10 minutes after I place it. I still havent gotten my refund back. I really do wonder what goes through my head when I make stupid *** financial decisions. I mean it wasn’t that bad of a decision, i think i cleaned up my carpet pretty well on my own, maybe a cleaner wouldve been a good purchase, but now im like asking baba for money. Im so impulsive w my money. I really need to save and get a new car. I wonder if you have a new car by the time you’re reading this. Yk its pretty annoying, I keep refreshing my dollars for scholars page to see if ive been awarded anything, and nothing. I seriously don’t know why fafsa even assumes my parents can help w my tuition. I wish they could, but even with baba’s salary money always seems to be tight. At least i’ll still be living at home. Its just really exhausting thinking about all the stuff I need to buy for uni. I still don’t have a computer. Idk i really should be more grateful. Most of my tuition is covered by fafsa. Yeah idk wtf my problem is, i really need to stfu. I have it pretty good rn. Extra money would be nice for books and stuff, and all those fees, devices and all. I keep dreading sleeping lately. Well idk if im dreading it but i keep avoiding it. It’s strange, i love sleeping but I just need the days to feel longer. Im pretty happy rn, my books on libby are available. One is “my year of rest and relaxation”, and the other is smth about a “stairway to hell” oh nvm it’s “a short stay in hell.” It would be pretty easy to check rn but ill figure it out once i get this letter. Ive been watching “the in inbetweeners”and god is it such a high. I need to make myself not binge the entire series. I remember around this time of last year i watched “adolescence,” read “I who have never known men,” and omg that one song, “wookies” by fake mink. i love march, its always a nice month. It makes me really nostalgic yk? Like ik ill look back at this march the same way I look back on march of last year. Yesterday I watched “fargo” and holy ****, i really hate the canadian accent, or midwestern idk its the same thing. But i FINALLY figured out how to crochet. The lady that got kidnapped was knitting before those absolute madmen kidnapped her. yeah so that was my inspiration to finally figure ts out. Im very pleased. Its nearly 10pm and ive been writing a ton. Alright good night now