A letter from Mar 19, 2026

hellooooo your 18 that terrifying near 113 days near to be exact hopefully you will have escaped the house by then and found a program willing to take you because that's what this is an escape. maybe you left a little early maybe you're still waiting for a program to accept you I don't know how anything works all I know is how little I know, I've done everything I can on my end now its time for action, you are the embodiment of action. right now I should be doing homework I should be working on my application but I'm not because I'm human. the project hail Mary movie gets released tomorrow and a teacher got upset at me because I asked him to unlock a restroom I have no meaningful relationship in my life, yet I'm happy. I don't know why I'm happy, I'm simply ok with my existence as it is I have a goal, though I'm lacking purpose I'm not isolated in my room, and I have things I need to think about. I haven't been reading lately and I've been ignoring adain for the past 4 months. nothing will ever be how its been ever again, and I hope to see a therapist in the near future. happy birthday and congratulations for making it to today PS go for a walk or something. and I love you