A letter from Mar 17, 2026

Dear sweetheart, I’m sorry for double writing in the same day. I don’t want to bother you. It’s just that we havent spoken in awhile. I usually write these and delete them. Now that I’m sending them somewhere it feels like i’m talking to you. So far, the emotional weight has been overwhelming every time it gets closer to being one of those days. It appears this month wont be any different. Maybe you could write back? You could tell me how you are doing. You could tell me about your day. Maybe rant about something silly. You could tell me about work. Maybe there was a dog that you pet. If the dog was small, then you could tell me how much it resembled a rat. I’m okay with anything as long as it’s from you. I just want to hear your voice. There were so many times I wanted to save recordings of your voice. Just you talking (singing would be a bonus). Whether it was from my dashcam or something i would ask if you could record for me. I wanted to do that just in case you died. It would be so i could remember your voice. If i’m ever having a bad day I could listen to it. For if i ever got sad or anxious and you werent there. Now, I regret never going through with it. Even though youre still alive, I may never hear your voice again. Today has been a really heavy day. It would be nice to hear from you. 3 months ongoing of crying everyday; I dont want to cry anymore. I dont want to cry anymore. I dont want to cry anymore. I dont know if you still care, but i miss you more every day. My days feel empty without you. If your days are better without me, then please forget it. The most important thing is that youre doing okay. It doesnt matter how I feel if you are able to find peace and happiness in my absence. I dont know if you meant it when you said you would love me forever, but I did. I still do. Our love will live forever in my memories. I love you forever, 03/17/2026