A letter from Mar 15, 2026

Dear FutureMe, I am going through a hard time and trying my best. I sometimes feel some fresh air and feel normal again but I can't avoid to feel how many wrong things there are in my life and myself. I blame myself, I feel unlovable, unworthy. I am trying to walk through this and I want to be myself, authentic, and live with more joy and purpose, although I am not sure of what that looks like right now. I am trying to take care of my body at the moment and I help my sould and head follow it. I am really trying, and that is what I keep telling myself to feel compassionate, because I know I´ve been trying for real and I have a good heart. I really hope all this pain takes me to a life that feels more alive, richer, more grounded, more loving, more true to myself, more purposeful. It is okay if you still feel lost, I just want to say I love you and I hope you feel proud of me too, it is dark here and I hope I connect with light sooner than later and life becomes more manageable and less painful and confusing. I have faith in you, I sometimes feel big love in my heart that I don´t want to waste. And I hope we find the places to pour that love into, not only in myself but in this world. I am trying, sometimes it feels like a miracle to still be functional. I am about to leave for a trip and I am scared, but I am trying. I really am, I hope life is kind, I hope I keep being resourceful and have strong friends. Love you