A letter from Mar 15, 2026

Dear FutureMe, its insane for me to even imagine that I am soon about to enter my last year of college so I can't imagine how surreal it must be for you now that its been months since you entered third year . I went to Gym yesterday on march 14th you might recall yk cause lately nothing felt like it was working out for me so I decided to work out for me instead ( wink ) and it did make me feel better so I am wondering....DID YOU FR JOIN GYM if yes then holy crap that's wonderful and if you didn't then did you try doing Pilates ? cause that is also something I wanna try but if neither than it's honestly enough if you are just doing yoga more consistently and drinking more water and on that note I HOPE YOU ARE DRINKING MORE WATER PLEASE SAY YESSSS. Anyways so I don't feel as heartbroken anymore I miss him still but my heart is coming to terms with not having him in my life anymore , I am not gonna play any guessing game in the matter of my heart but I hope you are okay , I hope you are able to see the gem of a human being you are and the immense possibilities you have in this tiny yet not so little life of yours . I am feeling lost , It's almost like I have a blank page in front of me now, but I have still got a whole bunch of chapters behind this blank page and now that the last chapter feels like it's ended, I have no idea where the story goes or where to even begin with this new chapter... But I guess I had already started writing for this new chapter unknowingly the day I decided to take a puff and call quits to whatever our whatevership had become and btw I know now and I knew then that I had to do it for the sake of not losing myself more and more in loving him even though it was the last thing on planet earth that I wanted to do and even though I knew it would leave me heartbroken , lonely , haunted and in complete shambles and safe to say yes it did and no I was not okay at all and yes it for sure is one hell of a process but it is still one of the most important decisions I made this year . It breaks my heart to even think of it or the times we have had and my mind....my body and my heart miss him but the pain of missing him is nothing compared to the loneliness and sadness and hurt I felt when he erased my existence every now and then . Enough about him (Clearly not fully over as you may notice) , I wonder how your internship went during the summer break , did you leArN SomEtHinG....? Did you realize something about yourself ? Do you feel like you made the most of that opportunity ( be honest -is my imposter syndrome visible yes I have it cause Yes I have had no working experience before this internship and I don't know what I offer to the table still figuring that out ). As for your Diet I hope you are eating well and trying new new yummy foods every now and then hehe. I wonder what all new characters got introduced in your life by now. How is it like spending time in your friend's new apartment sometimes bolo bolo . Also what you are up to lately like exams? assignments ? travel ? competitions ? or nothing ('-') ? did you go on any datesssss ? or did you find someone cute hehe ? if not then great cause holy crap I am so done with boys ngl . LIKE WHEN WILL I FIND A GENTLEMAN ??????????????? See I know I am bombarding you with too many questions and you know what I am sorry if I gave you BT after you opened this mail and read my letter . but hey I will still ask cause wholly crap I am anxious , excited and very curious about myself 6 months from now . like oh my god 6 months are alot , they didn't feel like alot when I was dating him I am gonna be honest but that's cause I was on cloud 9 at that time and also sometimes buried deep underground but I was never really on the normal ground where humans exist but now I am and the 6 months will thus feel like quite a bit of time . Quick question it's a very big guessss but by any chance are you thinking of studying abroad ? or are you gonna do MBA from India only ? like girl I Feel sorry that you have to make these decisions but oh boy life life life .... are already studying or preparing for an entrance or something ? Are you just as done with life as I am yet are lowkey waiting to see how everything unfolds ? well yk I just hope whatever you are doing at the moment you are enjoying it and that you are just casually serious . that's all i guess yep . bye love ya . yk what I love you already my future self and thankyou for reading my yappy bakwaas love you alots ( cringe to bohot ho raha hoga but kya kar sakte hai mein to hu cringe ) chalo ji bye I will try my best to have fun in my life and be consistent with whatever I choose to be consistent with , I promise to give my efforts to my personal and professional projects and I will genuinely try to make the hard choices and not the easy ones so that you the best the time of your life , I hope you are having the best time of your life always . Writing to you feels comforting and reassuring maybe because knowing you a bit I know the heart that is reading this letter , I know the smile that comes on your face and love you have for me . I love you too , you are my hope .