A letter from Mar 15, 2026

Well, hello Saihan... How's life? I think it's been a while since- we talked. I doubt we ever talked like this ever before but hey, there's a first time for everything! Well, are you still lost in life? I wanna try to speak to you as a friend. I think... You shouldn't fret so much. Just take 3-5 deep breaths and just, carry on- yk? There's a lot still left for you to see so, you gotta be the one beat witness to this miracle of a world. Don't le anything drag you down, you are the maker of your own fate and you must, be better. Trust in yourself brother- Trust, Dedication, Belief- that's all you need. It's okay if you don't have any of those yet, you just must not give up and continue to develop these aspects in your life. Moving on, How's Nadia? You better make sure that you are treating her like a princess. And about all those sacrifices... You know the bees and the birds, the dream of becoming a father... It's alright, those aren't the end of the world right? Just make sure you don't burn yourself. Take care of yourself too, let her know whenever something is bothering you, talk to her dude. You must talk to her even more, but yeah- I guess you'll need to reassure her every now and then but still, look her in the eyes and remind her how beautiful she is whenever you can, remind her of how much you love her, remind her about how she means the universe to you. She'll know that you love her, Trust me. Oh I think you were gonna start working on your thesis soon enough. How that ended up to be? Have you given your defence yet? Chins up my man, don't you stress- you'll ace the defence. And whatever you write a thesis about, I am sure it will get published! What else... What else... Of if you haven't treated yourself to a good oreo cheesecake in a while, do that. We love that cake don't we? It'll make everything sweeter in life. Why not save up and buy a big cake enough for both you and Nadia? That should be fun! Oh- How's the student tutor job been going for you? Have you found some fun students yet? Or have it been a total utmost drag? However, a job is a job and just give it your best alright? Your mother is and will forever be proud of you Saihan. You've come so far, it's surprisingly scary. Neither me nor you thought it would even be possible to that has to be huge right? Just focus on being your best self. How's Abbu coming along? How's Apu, and her children? Go visit her home, check up on her. I know you don't fancy her but it wouldn't hurt now would it? If it makes her vent a bit about life and lighten up- why not! Buy gifts for the kiddos tho! Also buy something for apu too, she'll be happy. By the way, how's your PC? Treat it well alright? A huge portion of money went into it, be responsible to it, clean it every now and then and go easy on it. OH THAT REMINDS ME HAVE YOU PLAYED ANY NEW/OLD GAMES? I know you have always wanted to just play games right? So be sure to play all the games you never thought you would. Don't give up on this hobby of yours man but, keep your self-control okay? Don't get so lost in the games that you forget entirely about the real world. Anyway, yeah I think that is all I'm gonna write. I hope this mail goes through and makes you smile. You deserve that smile and yeah, you deserve all the love in the world! Maybe I'll set the date to your birthday - it kinda makes sense as I mentioned cake right? Yeah you know what, make that cake a priority! CHEESE CAKE BEST! Hahaha, yeah so that's all. Happy, Birthday, My, Dear- Saihan! I'm sorry I didn't mention it all through out the mail, but I just wanted you to read this in the end. Happy birthday King. Maybe, I don't love myself enough right now- But I love you, my future self. Because you just might be the version I always wanted to become. If you aren't, that's okay: Just keep trying okay? Again, Happy Birthday Dude. Peace out. Ps: Love you man, take some more deep breaths and tell yourself in the mirror (i mean it, go stand Infront of the mirror), while looking at your eyes that you love yourself. And you believe in yourself. And you got this all under controlled. Farewell, myself.