A letter from Mar 05, 2026

Dear FutureMe, Pain and emptiness which you felt at that moment when you wrote this letter is releaved I hope.. Time cures such things and makes us wiser.. But am I wiser now? Definetely I am wise now, I always learn, I always win. When it was a thing about her thoughts flew around, why its happend? How fast did it happen? 2 months together had broken in 2 minutes call. Everything that I built in my imagination was just destroyed, and I thought I dont deserved that, but everything has to be paid for. All the time I spent being magically happy was an illusion; I was happy, but it was not supposed to be forever. I know now she is nobody for me, this person does not exist for me, I ****** her inside myself, or I was trying to do that, I knew that we were not a match, but somehow we attached, and distance revealed that it was only an attachment. Being under such emotional damage and misunderstanding is a real-life lesson which I got, and which built a new version of me. Its absolutely necessary to remember to be yourself without doubt in any situation and other factors. Having a mindset of a man who does not open his heart easily, who gives his brain to lead. I am speechless now when writing this, yeah its even not sad its strange that everything finished like this ... nobody's gonna rescue Edgar, only you, they didn't give a ***t about you and definetely they will continue doing like that. About Hwi, yes, I knew her situation, family, study, etc., but still, I hated you, I wanted you to suffer, and her message "I never meant to hurt you" Get yourself and disappear from my life. I wanted to forget you once in a while. I don't wish you anything, I don't have anything about you, but still something.. its not a sad story I am sure you are laughing now because of how silly is to spent time to write this ***t but still I needed to recover and that is why I am unreal strong, I am not happy, I am not satisfied, I am suffering and suffering is the way to be great and powerful