A letter from Mar 04, 2026

Dear FutureMe, thoughts that need to leave my mind/reminders. IT TAKES STRENGTH TO BE GENTLE AND KIND Should I strive to view others the way they view themselves or would that be a waste? There is a reason for all of this. It isn’t mystical or from the universe, you know the answer because you came up with it. Just as you are with the question. You deside passive or not and are filled with explanation. It’s better to explore the reasons even with the small but impactful disigions. Your past can only define who you were in that version of your life. Don’t let it be the end. These are stuck in your mind AHAHAH People care about you, you owe them the world, give what you can it takes strength to be gentle and kind OH MOTHER— I CAN FEEL— THE SOOILLLL FILLING OVER MY HEAD You deserve the life you build for yourself please do not let thoughts in opposition of this, delay the life you could have. I want to have a relationship with both my parents. I know forgiveness will only improve my mental health and self worth but how could I possibly. I will never forget the days I didn’t believe would end. I’m going back there I will never forgive but I need to learn to not blame. Please stop feeling guilty for learning how to deal with this. Do not feel bad that you are making slower progress than you would like celebrate what you have done to create a life for yourself and move forward instead of back with guilt and anxiety. I didn’t deserve to be put into a position like that, It wasn’t my job to come out unscathed and the same. I felt like I was Broken from the experience and Mabye but I can choose not to believe this. I don’t Belive my life changed who I am. And it is an incredibly personal journey because who else relates. Either way right now you are not Broken just leaning slowly. Please do not regress. It is a choice you make and feel each day and each moment it is a struggle. To stay still is okay. To reflect in a safe way is okay. Reflect on who you are and what defines you as a person. How you would like to be seen and would like to improve. Look at where you feel limited or you see potential. Your life looks different from others it does not mean you are an inherently different thing entirely.