A letter from Feb 24, 2026

Dear FutureMe and Dear Dad, Do i love too hard? Or do i except too much in return? I keep wondering if i’m the one asking for something unachievable I love him more than i loved my ex, i feel that, but there are many times when i feel silly being in love with him, sometimes i feel like i have been folished Is this what happens every time? You think this person is gonna make me feel the most special person in the world, and they do but the effort fades in time. Why? Why does time always fades things away I dont say he doesn’t love me because he does, but i guess he doesn’t show it in the way i am used to so that gets me feeling silly Im just a silly girl in love with a man older than me and maybe i could get someone “ better looking and younger” some people may say but i really love this man. When i first saw him at work it was just a fantasy of mine, it was just a glimpse of what if but it wasnt anything serious, my mind tends to do that with new people, imagine scenarios but it wasn’t anything serious because i knew he is older and in my head i would never fall for someone 10 years older than me And oh well, as you can see, it did happened. I am in love with him and i miss him even in my happy moments i wish he was with me, and thats not something i felt often before. I just came back from my trip to Barcelona and while i was there i was thinking yeah this place is fun and beautiful but i wish you were here to enjoy it with me, and there are moments when i don’t feel like this is mutual. Like the love exists i dont deny it, but its all about the intensity of it. I love him with intensity, there are moments when i feel like a piece of me breaks when i can’t see him for a long time, and he goes like i miss you too, but for me it’s like i miss you like you are a part of me missing, you know? I feel like i don’t want to end things with him just because of this, but i am afraid i will suffer from this lack of intensity. When i imagine the person i want to spend the rest of lire with it’s with someone who feels like us are two pieces ment to be together, and i don’t mean like my partner has to be glued to me it’s more like i want to feel like you feel my absence, i want you to enjoy your life and your plans who don’t include me without feeling like you forget about me. Is this too much to ask for? I really don’t know