A letter from Feb 20, 2026

hello. i'm getting worse and worse and i'm so scared im betraying myself. i've become the things i hate. last year me would hate current me. please don't get worse. i don't want to get worse, please. i'm so scared. i'm not myself right now but it doesn't have to be like this. if you notice this devolving, please just listen to me now: delete that tcc tiktok account, delete that tumblr, talk to your therapist, stop attention seeking, and please keep yourself safe instead of making yourself worse to validate your problems more. bad things happened to you, but don't let it chip away at you. you are still yourself. you are still the boy you were when you were 13, when you were 11, even when you were 8 and had to deal with it all. think of him, think of me, think of all of us and don't lose yourself in it all.