A letter from Jan 28, 2026

Dear FutureMe, or may I say PastMe. Yes, I believe it. I received our message 6 days ago and it’s from 31 dec 2024. Insane how I think that’s such a long time ago. Let me answer our beloved past self questions then I’ll talk to you future me 🥹 first of all thanks so much for telling me what you’re listening to because all three of us; past, present, and future know how badly we live for music. I’m kinda listening to beabadoobe music right now. Beaches, 10:36, glue song and so on. Well it is kinda random right now. Okay, so, life has been okay. It’s fair life is always fair because it all works by Allahs will. But yeah well sorry baby but we attempted suicide by an overdose of cipralex in may. Sorry you had to go through it it was real hard and we thought we wouldn’t survive but here we are today!!! And it’s been almost 8 and half months now on antidepressants!! I’m so proud of youuuuu!!!! And lujain, our therapist, is the best. You write diary cards now and learn DBT skills to survive being alive 💚 and well, family is good. It’s a lot more confusing now to choose where to live after getting way too comfortable and staying lots at your dads house that you never thought you’d visit but yeah. Oh yeah cuz he got divorced. And well mom is okay. She had an abortion but she’s okay but it is still confusing. And grandma is… more confusing? And kinda awful without meaning to be. Our relationship with dad is way better by the way and I’m super glad for that 💕 Ahmed is currently sick in his stomach but he’s gonna be okay and he’s okay! You’ve been really having your ups and downs as siblings. He’s a pre teen and he’s getting quite mean and, well, a teen. But we still love and care for him endlessly nevertheless. Oh yeah forgot to tell you, we got into a haram relationship we never thought we’d do. With a 15 year old Iraqi boy called Farhan. You talked in November and you kinda broke up in January but it wasn’t even a relationship it was a weird situationship that he never really wanted to commit in. It still hurts because it’s a fresh wound especially that he did block us on our birthday but it’s gonna be okay it gets better aaaaand our future husband would NEVER. But yeah you really loved him and he broke your heart and lusted all over you. Oh and your brother found it and it was a mess but you figured it out. Oh yeah, about your questions of being FOURTEEN!!! Yeah it’s obviously still kinda weird and fuzzy and I’m adjusting to this age but yeah it’s definitely AMAZING. Oh, and WE ARE PRETTIER!!!! We’re always pretty though I swear. But yeah we got prettier and this age suits us better than the one before 🥹 okay I guess I answered all your questions. I love you too babes. And I hope you get the softness that you need and because I’m not in the past anymore I can tell you you definitely did. Okay, I guess talk to my future self now? So, how are ya? How’s reading? Please tell me we’re out of that awful slump!! And please tell me were adjusting better and better to the main character age of FOURTEEN! And please tell me we moved on from that ******. And please tell me we’re still friends with badreya! And please tell me eighth grade ended well because I have a feeling it did! Oh my gosh… the exchange year! What happened to it? Please tell me there’s an update and dad is still having our back with that! Because were hopefully going next year!!!💕and how’s deen? We’re praying on regular right? And we tried our best memorizing Quran and everything. Oh my god did we get a pet yet?? Okay I won’t make it much longer baby. Please remember it’s gonna be all okay in the end and even if it didn’t it’s not the end. And you’re doing absolutely amazing! I’m so unbelievably proud of us. And keep doing what you’re doing but please never overdo and over-sweat yourself. Take care of deen and your mom and your dad and brother and most importantly yourself. And don’t forget DBT skills 💚 and you’ll figure it all out and even if you didn’t that’s completely okay it’s enough you’re alive. I love you SO ******* MUCH you don’t get it. You genuinely don’t and you never will. And hopefully the beautiful name “rors” becomes indifferent one day. Mwah. Please take care and HAVE LOTS OF FUN YOU'RE A TEENAGER WTF??? Xxxxx I’m kinda going so sleep now btw. So i guess goodnight?