A letter from Jan 26, 2026

Dear Future B, Here we are! Happy New Year I guess. Seems that we had to wait the preamble to get an eventful start and here we are. Sigh! B, you are a star! I feel it is important I let you know this. The future is holding out for you and despite the rough start I am here from the other end with a full smile cheering on for you. I am sorry that It feels like you can't get your head up without a bummer. I am sorry that there are tears in your eyes barely weeks into the year and by no fault of yours nonetheless. I am sorry that you have had to question the love down to your family. And I am sorry that 8 years down the line, the pain is still chasing you down and gathering champions with it. You don't deserve it. You have never deserved it and its longevity is by no means a justification for it. I know it seems defeatist especially now that the last line of hope you had has been damned. You are just figuring out now that you might have to stand alone and sever ties even with your blood. I am sorry that this is what it has come to . By now you and I know you cannot afford to compromise your comfort any more. These 8 years have shown you without doubt that there is no letting out for your freedom. You have considered others too long and still they find a way to discount your person all the more. This year started with you thinking you were ready to move for work and for leisure but it is demanding more from you.You need to move not just your body but your heart and your soul. I am here to let you know that your place is ready. Everything and everyone on the other side has been ready for you. Youve got hands, hearts and smiles waiting for you to walk in. Names you don't know. Rooms you never imagined have been held in state for you. Your pain has outgrown your comfort and it is time. Breathe and walk in. Every moment has prepared you for this . You have carried your pain with grace. You have protected your circles with your shame. But now it is time to let it all down. The past year has claimed women close to your heart in the most undignified ways and it has hurt you more than you imagined. You have to reclaim your agency for them. You have to call back your voice, your wisdom, your presence from people who continue to diminish and exploit it. Dearest one, hear me when I say this, the future is not a threat. No matter how the cookie crumbles you come out on top. I promise you, standing here as you are now,is better that cowering to protect your past. You will struggle to justify the worth of all these years and how much you have given or rather how much has been taken. That is not for you to decide. Let go and open your arms for the promise ahead. Walk with your head high, laugh at your quirks, delight in your self thats all that there is. You walked the path of love and it has led you back here. To yourself. You get to decide your parameters and that includes checking out of rooms that deprioritize your heart. You have done enough bearing, enough explaining enough shrinking. You don't need to use any more words to explain your choices or your boundaries. So far your efforts have turned out to be entertainment. Just another conversation with the decisions being an affrimative action for the masses. No one sees you pain and maybe no one will eve understand it. The bonds get tighter, your voice gets quieter. Everyone elses comfort becomes more important. Their business, their relationships, their image! Its all about them. No one sees you choking at their pretense or how you squirm in their presence. No one hears your heart pounding or where your mind goes. No one replays the abuse or sees the rooms differently. No one sees how heavy the rooms get with the memories of what happened. There is no escaping the past and especially not with everyone frolicking with the abuser. But you get a choice this time. You get to choose different for the little girl years ago who didn't have the options or the language or the werewithal to say no. YOU GET TO TAKE IT PERSONALLY! Without explanantion, without apology. You get to leave. You get to walk out! You get to preserve you peace. AND NO YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAVE ANYONE ELSE on your way out. Dearest one, There is more for you. Beyond this bump is a life you havent even imagined. A career that is built just for you. A home that is built just for you. And believe it or not, you don't have to give nothing in exchange. You only have to fall back in love with yourself and watch every path rise to receive you. Forgive yourself for diminishing your light, for taking the blame for allowing your glory to be dimmed. Give yourself grace as you behold your true self. The grandness that you outsourced to men with callous hands and insecure minds. The excellence that you lost midstep afraid you were too much. The wander you traded for permanence in miniature boxes of their definitions. You never needed help with your purpose my love. You have always had everything you needed or else they wouldn't be so hung up to own a piece of you. Do not ever limit yourself again. I can't wait for you to come back and tell me all the wonder these months have brought, all the rooms your voice has filled, all the crevices your laughter has resonated, how your person has bloomed, how your accounts have grown,how many friends have flowered your path, what ease has watered your life, how much abundance has blossomed in your life, how much your voice has smoothened ans speech has boldned, how lightly you walk through life and how your tribe has gravitated towards you. Get used to receiving because there is luxury flowing your way. All that dread you have carried was never for you. There is a long life and a large world waiting for you to walk it. Pack your best smile and start the journey! Fly like a butterfly, sting like a bee. With all my love, B.