A letter from Jan 14, 2026

I will be gone. And I will be gone for a long time. I haven’t seen you since Christmas. Of course you were here a few times. But I didn’t feel like it was you. You were distance and cold. When I’m gone, would you look for me like always look for you? Would you keep me alive in your mind just like how I always think about you? It was silly and I don’t even know if it was real. But it sure occupied a big part of my mind for a long time. Even if its just through screen, does it mean it’s not real? I will be gone for a long time and If I came back, I’d expect you to still be there, like the other seven months we have known each other. I hope you will greet me and say you missed me. I hope you are still playing the game and you get to even higher level so I could be busy trying to catch up to you. I hope you didn’t forget me but I hope I no longer feel this way towards you. I hope I’d find life outside and can finally see you just as an internet friend and not something more like I do now. Sending out long paragraphs of someone I barely know in real life to the wide world of internet, both hoping you will read it and get to know how I really feel one day and never be aware of its existence for the rest of your life and just let my long love letter sink into the lost archive of internet. This is so not me but you have been a wonderful experience in my life. I hope you'd find me as wonderful in your mind. In months when this letter found its way to creep into my mind again, I wonder on what state we will be? Will we still be in touch? Will I be the friend you tell to your other new friend? Was it just a game to you? But I’m in so deep. Do you know I’m such a fool for you?