A letter from Jan 11, 2026

Dear FutureMe, Dear Future Elisa, How are you doing again? So many things has happened since you last wrote a letter. I am now in my 4th year of Architecture. I've been a dean's lister already. I've been to Rome already, i have stayed there, i have came back there so many times. You've been to many places already, mainly-- you've been to France, Spain and United Arab Emirates already. And you know you've met a guy already, and you have a boyfriend already. His name is Amir Afridi. So many things has happened between the two of you, and now i am struggling to keep the relationship, i am struggling to fight for someone who's not there anymore, Amir is constantly ignoring me, he has already changed it was not like before anymore. Everything changed on him, but i still love him so much, and i can't still let go. He cheated on me, but i still forgave him, did so many things on my back, but still i'm here begging for his love like a ****. But you have Sameer, many things has happened also with the two of you, but you know what, after everything i did to him, many lies, he still came back for me. And now i'm torn between the two of them. I love them both so much, it's just that it has a difference. With amir; i am holding unto the memories we have, we have shared together, Amir was my first in everything, and i felt everything with him, i felt emotions and feelings i've never felt before. I did so many things just to fight for him, for what we have, I love him so much to *****, but everything changed already, because the old Amir is not there anymore, He constantly ignores me, blatantly disrespect me, the love is not there anymore i guess but i still love him after everything, i am holding to what we have and i am hoping we would come back to me but i am hurt already, everyday, it's like i am forcing someone i don't feel butterflies anymore, instead i feel lost and heavy. Every day i overthink, i beg, i have no peace of mind, i have no self respect, i am not happy. But with Sameer, i am happy, i smile every time we talk, i smile when he calls me, i feel butterflies i guess. I am so much in peace when talking with him, he makes me in peace, he knows how to handle me, he understands me so much, and he appreciate me so much, he have done so much more then Amir could do in more than 1 year. Sameer is treating me good after everything i did to him, he is a good man, he is the standard i was talking about before. Never let me go to sleep without checking on me. Now the question is; after 6 months, now that you are reading this, Are you still with Amir? Do you still love Amir? Did you went to met him Dubai again in March 26-30? Does he treats you right this time? Do you have peace of mind now? Or you're with Sameer already? are you still talking to Sameer? Are you happy now? Because now i am so much in pain, i couldn't function properly. i am so dependent with Amir's actions, it looks like Amir controls me unconciously. I just hope you are so much better now, i hope you are still a dean's lister, I Hope you found your worth already, i hope you're not crying every time, because now i am so ******* tired, ii am so drained. I just hope you are okay now my love, i hope you are loving yourself now. I love you so much Elisa, i hope you are stronger now.