A letter from Jan 05, 2026

Dear future me, Is this the year of suicide, or the year of resurrection? Did i build myself up, or did i go corrupt and destruct? Can i finally let everything go from the past, can the past retaliate for now? Will my mind finally reach to the point I'm asking about the small things, small appreciation rather than myself? When do i have to stop thinking about survival for each day to take an end? Have you decided now? Do you live, love and flee with a beautiful life. In the meanwhile standing in this gate seduces you to suicide right now? Will peoples perspective change me from a monster to an ordinary person? In the past I've seen it, hopefully this new year will redeem it. Now Who are you now? Where are you now? Why are you alive now? Are you okay now? Does the weight feel light now?