A letter from Jan 03, 2026

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are healthy and taking good care of yourself. I’m in a strange place right now—one I never imagined I would find myself in. In August 2025, I ended my engagement with someone I truly believed was meant for me. For months afterward, I desperately hoped we would find our way back to each other. Even though I wasn’t happy with Mateusz, we spent four long years together, visited so many beautiful places around the world, and fought hard for one another. And even when I began to resent not only him but myself as well, I was still deeply grieving the end of that relationship. I had to come to terms with the time, emotions, and struggles that ultimately came to nothing. I still respect him as a person, and I genuinely hope he can be happy—without bitterness or coldness toward our past. With time, I’ve realized that perhaps the only thing that truly made him special was the love I had for him. Now, in January, I feel calmer and happier than I have in a very long time. I welcomed the New Year with a new boyfriend—something I never thought I would say out loud. I was convinced I would marry Mateusz and never have to open my heart to another man again. And yet, after one random date with a random man, I found myself completely smitten. There is so much understanding, chemistry, and affection between Aleksander and me. Being with him feels entirely new and different. I’m slowly getting used to the idea that I can be calm around my partner—that I don’t have to live in constant irritation or worry. I know he will provide and take care of me. He doesn’t unload all his problems onto me. He looks for my comfort, not my ability to fix everything, and that makes all the difference. He makes me feel like I can simply be a woman. I love his thoughtfulness, his patience with my emotions, his intelligence, and the random facts about the world he likes to share. He is also incredibly attractive (as you can tell—I could talk about him all day): tall, with a perfect laugh and smile, and eyes that awaken emotions and butterflies I thought I had lost forever. I do have doubts, and I think that’s unavoidable for someone who feels anxious almost daily about nearly every aspect of life. Sometimes I feel like he keeps many of his thoughts to himself. I don’t know much about his past, and at times I don’t fully feel like I’m part of his life—although he never excludes me. He wanted to introduce me to his closest friends almost immediately, and he did. He spends all his free time with me. I just spent two full days at his place—we talked endlessly, played games, watched movies, and shared intense intimacy. I know I will have to take a risk and see where this leads. Two days ago, he told me he loves me, and I feel like I’ll be able to say it back very soon. I want to see where this takes us, and for now, I am full of hope. There is very little in this world I can be certain of—but I am ready to take this risk and love this man. Maybe all the pain and disappointment from my previous engagement were meant to lead me to Aleksander. Maybe he is my person. You, Future Me, already know how this turned out. In January 2027, you are either thriving in this relationship or you have already survived the heartbreak of not making this man your future husband. Either way, you are strong and unstoppable, and no man can ever take that away from you. They are an addition to your life, not its definition. Beyond love, I hope you are in a better place—mentally and professionally. I hope you finally left the job you once loved but grew to hate, and found something more fulfilling and better paid. I hope you have meaningful trips planned. Please, finally go to South Korea. Go out into the world. Be happy. Be your best self. I love you. Take care of yourself.