I'm doing better, much better actually.

Dear Charlize, How are you doing? I'm doing well. I haven't recovered from you-know-what yet, but I'm in a better place mentally. Some of that could be attributed to my shockingly high self-esteem right now, although that comes and goes as it pleases. I was really negative in 2024, my last letter contained a lot of very self-deprecating talk, which that wouldn't help anyone feel better. Maryland is nice, not my favorite, but it's nice. I definitely miss Ventura a lot more than I thought I would... I got to see my mom this year, it was rather disappointing. That's not to say I don't care for my mom, but I don't really see her as my mom if that makes sense? I don't have a connection with her, and I don't think I desperately want to either. It's weird because all this time we've hyped it up, meeting her I mean. It's always been a dream that we wished for all the time, but even myself in 2024 knew I wouldn't like it. Perhaps that will change...? I'm doing pretty good in school, I've had straight A's all year! I also participated in my first play ever, casted as ensemble, I had a lot of fun. I'll be in another one in January, so I'll leave it up to you to remember how well that goes. As of right now I haven't even thought of memorizing my lines, despite the fact that we're performing in a little less than a month... Anyway, I got commissioned for the first time! And they scammed me, which is great! If they pay that'll be great, lol. I got another commission closely after, they gave me Nitro, though. Christmas was good, though it felt like they don't really know me, nor do they care to actually know me... but that's fine. I'll be ultra specific with my list, so if they can't find anything for me (despite it all being what I want....) then I can get money! And what's better than money? A lot of things. Oh~ I didn't mean to type that but im gonna keep it in. I've been learning Chinese AND DONT FORGET TO APPLY TO JAPAN!!1!11111!1!!!!!!! Bro I really hope I get in. There's an overseas exchange year and I truly want to go, like so bad. I hope I can get in. I hope we can pay for it, it's only like 20k.... Which would amount to $65/day, which honestly isn't that bad! I would still have to pay for food (that my host family doesn't provide), and pocket money, but I'll start saving for that, now! Also, I get like $300 a month so I don't really have to worry about financial things anymore, I just need to save my money and hope for the best. $200 will go into savings in my bank account, the other $100 will go to my whatever savings account in Cash-app, unless I spend it. Umm I don't really know what else to say. Hey I lowkenuinely just read a letter from 2023 and holy cow I was going through it bro 😭 WHY WAS I CATCHING STRAYS AT THE END HELLO???? **** bro I was genuinely going through it omg. "If I get bullied I can just **** myself." Bro can I go back in time and give myself a hug wtf?? And I thought my letter from 2024 was bad bro 😭😭😭😭.. um you should read it 2026 Charlie, cus that lowkirkenuinly shocked me 💔 On a lighter note, I am gonna list some fandoms I'm in: Alien Stage, Hamilton, TSHD, ORV, TBHK, VNC, Idle, (nwjns danielle pls come back), Weak Hero, Billie Eilish, LINK CLCICKCKKCK and a lot of others! Ok NOW I don't know what else to say! 2025 was awesome, I hope 2026 is even more awesome! Love, Charlize from 2025 🥹 <- emoji of the year btw